Harry Potter X depressed! Reader

Somethings off about her

Narrator POV

(Y/N) had just started her fifth year at Hogwarts, but  something was off about her, she wasn't as happy as usual, she seemed distant and she barely spoke to anyone.

Harry POV

When I got on the train I immediately started looking for (Y/N), she was my best friend and I hadn't seen her all summer. I looked around the train for a good 10 minutes before I found her sitting in a compartment alone. I smiled and opened the door.

"Hey (Y/N)!" I said as I walked over to her, hugging her in the process. She seemed to snap out of a trance and hugged me back smiling.

"Harry! Hey, I missed you." I let go of her and looked at her, something seemed off about her but I said nothing about that.

"I missed you too (N/N). So how was your summer?" She hesitated, almost as if she were trying to think of something to say, a lie maybe?

"It was fine, how was yours?" I noticed that she was wearing a sweater over her muggle t-shirt, which surprised me considering it was absolutely scolding outside, I frowned at this.

"Uhm, it was fine, why are you wearing a sweater? Its extremely hot outside." she stiffened

"Uh...I'm cold?" she said that more like a question.

"(Y/N), is everything alright?" She hesitated before nodding.

"Yup! everything is great." I could tell she was lying, but why would she lie to me? I'm her best friend, we tell each other everything!

"(Y/N), what aren't you telling me?"

"What? Nothing." Lie, another bloody lie. What was going on with her?  I decided not to push her and changed the topic.

(time skip cuz I'm lazy af)

Once the sorting ceremony was over with, food appeared on the golden platters all across the table, I grabbed loads to eat. I turned to (Y/N), who was sitting right beside me, and saw that her plate was empty.

"(Y/N)?" she turned to me.

"what?"

"Aren't you going to eat anything? you ate nothing from the trolley on the train, you must be absolutely starving." (Y/N) sighed and shook her head.

"I'm not hungry, Harry. honest. I think I'm just gonna go to my dormitory and unpack. See you later." She got up from the table without another word and left.

(Y/N) POV

Once I left the dining hall I went straight to the Griffindor common room and up to the girls dormitory. I opened my trunk and began to unpack all of my things. Once all of my clothes were unpacked I pulled out a sock, inside the sock were my razor blades, 4 to be exact. I almost grabbed one when someone walked into the room, I quickly put the sock back in my trunk and slid it under my bed. I turned around only to be met by the one and only, Hermione Granger.

"(Y/N)! How was your summer? I was going to ask you during dinner but you ran off before I had the chance." She said with a slight smile, you see, Hermione, Ron, Harry and I are quite close, though they leave me out quite a lot. 

"Oh, hey 'mione, my summer was fine thank you, what about yours?" she began to go on and on about her summer, I wasn't surprised when she mentioned that she harry and ron had stayed together for the last few weeks of summer vacation, I was slightly upset that they didn't invite me but they never do so it didn't surprise me that I was left out. as she was rambling, I decided that it was time for me to get ready for bed, since it was getting quite dark outside. I pulled out my pyjama shorts and a sweater, even though it was quite warm in our dormitory, and I started to get changed. Hermione kept rambling on, it wasn't until I took off my shirt that she went silent. I frowned but ignored it, then all of a sudden Hermione practically screamed.

"(Y/N)! Merlin! I can see your ribs!" I quickly put my sweater on, glad she didn't notice the cuts and turned to her. she looked at me eyes wide.

"Merlin, don't you eat anything? why haven't you got any fat on your bones? that cant be healthy you know you must-" I cut her off

"Hermione I'm fine, and I do eat I've just been on a diet you see." that was a total lie and she and I both knew it, but she didn't say anything. she slowly nodded her head.

"Okay then. Now I'm sorry but I must be going, I promised Ronald that I would help him unpack, that git can't do anything on his own." and with that she left the room. I crawled into my bed and just layed there. I wasn't tired but I didn't want to wander around anymore. But eventually I fell asleep.

A/N

So, that's my first chapter, as you can see this book will cover some serious things and I personally know what its like to go through every single one of them. I will put warnings at the beginning if there will be self harm or talk of depression because I know that it is a very serious matter, but this book is for entertainment purposes only. I love you all, have an amazing day and stay awesome!

-Summer

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