House of Moonlight (Halren)

fourteen- "But mostly, just...I miss you."

We walk a road in life that we don't really know the end to, all we can hope for is that the few bumps in it are small enough to overcome.

But for some, that's not quite the case. Bumps in the road turn into mountains and suddenly climbing them seem impossible. 

Halsey was currently perched at the base of her mountain, looking up at it's looming form and wondering how she would conquer it. Climb it? Possibly. Go around it? She could. Tear it down? Was that even possible?

All she knew was...on the other side of that mountain was a green-eyed girl awaiting her. Begging her to do something to reach her.

And Halsey wanted to, she wanted to jump so very high that she reached the other side in record time, meet with Lauren and profess to her just how wrong she was about leaving what they had in the dust.

Lucy was right, leaving behind people she loved was not an option. Not when she had yet to experience the best she could in life, even if the best felt so impossibly out of reach. 

So Halsey's plan was simple; she would try. She would talk to the people she needed to talk to, she would take the medication prescribed to her...she would try. 

Not for Lauren or Dinah or Camila or her parents.

She would try for her. 

Because she'd seen the bliss Camila and Lucy were currently in due to their blossoming relationship, she could see the positive influence love had on a person's soul and she wanted that but she also knew that she couldn't just grasp at it. She couldn't reach out and clutch at that emotion and hope everything falls into place.

She needed a plan, a timeline to go by before she could allow herself to indulge in it all. 

She needed to fix her mind before focusing on repairing her heart.

But before all that, she needed to heal a heart she'd left in tatters a week prior. 

The hallways were quiet, it was late at night and the only souls about were those on night shift. She'd spotted Ally earlier and was glad when she could find it in herself to wave at the kindly nurse. She liked Ally, the woman was the light she wanted to always see in humanity.

She knew tonight she wouldn't be able to sleep, not that her sleeping pattern had been a regular one up to that point, but tonight in particular there was a distinctive weight pressing down on her already heavy chest.

She had to talk to Lauren, she needed to work through what was said and explain to Lauren where her mind was at. And she knew she'd find the raven-haired girl in the cafeteria because more often than not, it was why she avoided the place at night. Lauren's sleeping pattern seemed as irregular as her own. 

Halsey rounded the corner and though prepared to see her, she still wasn't quite prepared for the onslaught of guilt that attacked her as she locked eyes on Lauren's hunched over back. It was turned to her, she was probably reading a book because Halsey knew that was Lauren's go to when sleep evaded her. 

She took a moment just to take the girl in, wondering what was swirling around in that imaginative mind of hers. 

To this point, Halsey hadn't really thought too much of Lauren's mind in relation to it being imaginative but staring at the girl in that moment, she had to give it credit. It had formulated a person Lauren had never met and it had allowed this person to become Lauren's most entrusted confidant. It had created a girl that could ease the green-eyed girl's worries, soothe her pain, bask in her happiness. And yes, that wasn't considered the norm but Halsey hoped Lauren would never lose her love for Normani.