Amelia

Chapter one

The lights are flashing in my eyes. My body is being crushed by the hundreds of people that surrounded me as if they were a pack of wolfs. The rush of serotonin rush through my body. Music blasting, heart pounding, and teeth chattering.

I find myself in a dark washroom in the back of the building I'm alone silence is the only thing around me other than the mumbled sound of the music.

I feel like I'm sinking in water, weights tied to my legs gasping for my last breath. The crushing feeling as your breath runs out.

I hear a ponding on the locked door, I stubble over tripping over my own feet and unlock the metal lock.

"Where the hell did you go Lia" Milo mumbles as he slides down the wall of the washroom.

I make my way to the wall opposite to him and sit down as well. "What time is it" I whisper.

He passes me his phone showing me the time, 4:32 am October 3rd. it's been 6 hours since I took the little pink pill.

"It should be coming down" milo says glancing at the time himself this time. I standing up using the wall as support and leave the room still stumbling milo turns off the light behind us knowing we both have to go home.

The bus stop is cold. I wait shivering with a cigarette in my fingers. I move it to my lips and give it a light. The fire is warm and bright and I feel warmer just by looking at it, I it's just the ecstasy thinking I think to myself. I light the cig and inhale my lungs filling with the warm smoke, "Shit milo we have to get home before our parents wake up".

"Amelia, calm down is a Saturday morning they think you're at Hanna's". He says in an annoyed tone.

A sigh releases all my stress and buts me at easy.
A squeak of the bus coming to a stop fills my ears, I flick my cigarette on the ground a step on the warm bus.

Milos stop is two stops before mine, a rush of the cold fall air comes in as he steps out. He gives me a smile and confidently steps off the bus walking in to his apartment building.  I take my ear phones out and put them in my ears the music filling my head. All my focus goes in the tune and the words of the song. I feel at peace, I feel safe.

I get lost in the music and soon make in to my stop. "Kathleen stop" the automated voice say I stand up and step out of the Warm bus in the cold dark street.

The street lights are still on as I walk down the middle of my street stepping on the fallen leaves. I make it to my front door and check the time, 6:22 am. It's a decent time to come home I unlock the door and quietly make my way in. I make my way up the stairs being careful to not make a sound as my mom and two sisters sleep.

When I get to my room and take off my black shorts and tank top and slip on an oversized hoodie, remove my smudged eyeliner and mascara. I have erased the night like nothing happened.

I get in bed a pull up my covers and the tiredness hits and soon the world is put on hold while I sleep the day away.