The NBSB Diary

Day 2 - The Fall

When things get tough, nobody is to blame. Just accept the fact that sometimes it is just bound to happen. - Miya

Am i really falling out of love?

Am I inlove with you before?

Or is it all  about my dreams i've expected to be my reality?

Are you inlove with me or I'm  just assuming?

Why do I need to feel this way?

Why do you need to reject all of my efforts?

Is it for me to wake up from all the dreams I have that  will soon to be my nightmare?

Why am I still expecting for you to love  me back when all you can do is to love me as your friend? Only as your  friend, nothing more, nothing less. Well, I guess it is all your fault.  You made me feel loved and thats all I believed before. But now, I know, I'm  wrong. Yes, you love me, but only as your friend and that is all you can  give.

Maybe I'm so inlove with the idea of love and that is the reason why i  feel this way.

I was hurt for my expectations you can't do. I expect you  to love me, to care for me, to be with me always and to be my one and only.  Maybe she's better than me, and maybe she deserves you more.

I hate myself for being a poor hopeless woman. I cant even fight for the one I love. I just let the one who loves me pass by and wait for the wrong  person. Without even noticing,  I've just waited for nothing.  I've wasted my  time for a love that will never ever be mine. If I could only have my second  chances.

I will not reject him who really loves me. He who is always there beside me when you're with someone else. I will give him time to  prove that his worth it, and his love will never let me fall out of love with him. I wish I could turn back time. I wish he'll be coming back  to catch me when i fall. . and by that time I will never let myself to  lose him again.

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Hindi ko din talaga alam bakit ko naisulat ito. I've never been into a relationship in my entire life (as of the moment)
Medyo natatawa nga ako when I was reading this.

I can still remember who is the man behind this but i can't clearly remember what happened . Well, it seems that time can really heal wounds from the past. Kaya ikaw, kung nasasaktan ka man, let it all pass, and wait for the time that when you will look back, just like me, eh matatawa ka na lang din.

You will really laugh like it never actually happened.