Flaws // 5SOS

Chapter 7

I took a deep breath. "You can't tell anyone or say anything to anyone or anything. Do you understand me?" I said firmly to him. I was shaking. Not like my usual panic attacks. He nodded his head. I looked into his eyes. I had never looked into his eyes, for over 1 minute anyway.

"You don't know why I have no mum or dad do you?" I asked.

"No?" He replied.

"What happened was... well... My dad was an alcoholic and my mum well... my dad was drunk one night, he tried to I guess hit me or something but my mum got in the way... and..." I started to sob. Tears rolled out my eyes. Ashton pulled my head into his chest and rested his on top of mine.

"Shh..." He whispered. I think he understood. Well that is what I presumed, but I had to continue.

"There isn't really an easy way to say it but I never saw my mum again, and my dad is in prison, it's been 10 years and I still remember every detail. That's why I'm so upset and not exactly with it, I haven't told anyone before and I don't even talk to Kyle about it." I said.

"Is that why you don't drink?" He asked trying not to pull on my feelings. I nodded.

"Please don't say anything to anyone Ashton?" I pleaded.

"Of course I won't tell anyone, I love you Heidi" he said while planting a kiss on my head. He picked up the remote for the tv and turned it on.

"Can we watch something I want for a change I'm sick of family guy" I laughed slightly. As he scrolled through the channels I spotted Toy Story.

"Please can we watch Toystory" I said. He looked at me like I had something on my face. He chuckled. We sat there for 5 hours, we didn't talk, we watched Toy Story 1, 2 and 3. The rest of the time we watched Friends.

Eventually he got up. "Want a snack or anything?" He said as he walked into the open space black and white kitchen.

"Can I have a hot chocolate?" I asked. I really hated tea and coffee.

"We only have a bit left, will the store be open? Like Coles?" He asked.

"No I think it closes at 9 or 10." I replied. "I will just have a little hot chocolate and I will get some more in the morning"

Suddenly Michael stumbled in with a blue haired girl. They were full on going at it, I think they were playing tonsil tennis. Michael was groaning and I became externally uncomfortable, I think even Ashton did.

"Michael!" Ashton shouted. Michael waved his hand telling him to 'shut up' I guess and him and the blue haired girl aggressively groaned and kissed until they walked into Michaels room.

I looked at Ashton and Ashton looked at me, we just burst out laughing. He handed me a scolding hot hot chocolate which was topped with marshmallows and cream. "Thanks"

"Michael... Michael!" We heard from Michael's room.

"We should so record this and set it as his ring-tone" Ashton said as I laughed.

"Where do you reckon Calum is?" I asked.

"Probably doing the same as Michael but in Coles car park" he chuckled.

Ashton grabbed my hot chocolate and placed it on the glass coffee table in front of us. He also placed his tea. Grabbing my hand he lead me to his bedroom door.

"Ashton... Babe not tonight" I pleaded. He pulled his puppy dog eyes face and it's irresistible. But I was really not emotionally happy to do it. I would any other night but just not tonight.

"Ok, but will you still come with me" he said. I followed him init his room and it was beautiful. The red walls which were tattered were painted in a new coat of red, the bed has bedazzled in fairy lights and on the wall above his black double bed was a canvas print of myself and Ashton holding hands walking down the beach.

I was gobsmacked. "Ashton wow!" Is all I mannaged to say.

"You like it?" He said feeling proud about himself. I nodded.

That night I slept like like a log. Ashton's arm was around me keeping me warm and safe and his neck rested on mine. Every now and again he would kiss my neck. I love him. I loved the smell of his clothes. I loved everything about him.