The Angel In A Devil's Coat

Taehyung's POV

I turned around to see them laughing...

I frowned, I didn't know why they were laughing. I rustled around to get the paper on my back. I managed to grab it. It said,

'Loser Alert!

Kick Me!'

I was horrified, is this what had become of me? An idiot to the whole school?

I ran away from my problems like I always do. Was I not supposed to? Well, it was too late for that. My mother and I visited my therapist a few days after because my mother feared I am still scarred from my old school. The news was worse than we expected. My mother cried and wept and shouted at my therapist to take it back.

I was diagnosed with alexithymia.

Did this mean that I couldn't express my feelings? Never again? Maybe it wasn't too bad. Maybe it meant that I couldn't be hurt again.

When I met you I felt a strange feeling in me. I wanted to express everything to you. But I knew I wouldn't be able to. So I sent you an email. You replied a few hours later. My heart lifted so high it didn't know where to stop.

We got so close. But when you had a loss, I wasn't there to help you. Your boyfriend was. He was comforting you. I, on the other hand, was a scaredy cat. Too afraid that you would turn away when you knew you I really was.

Dearest Y/N,

I thought having alexithymia would shield me from other people, but it was scarier than that. Even though I wanted to comfort you the day you lost your sister, I just gave you a cold shoulder, that I knew I shouldn't have had.

I love you. 

Maybe I could meet you in heaven. But I probably won't make it to heaven. Someone like me would go to hell.

Bye~ Tae.

Y/N ran from her house to the school. She could see a silhouette of Taehyung casting an angel like shadow onto the pavement below.

"BYE Y/N!"

And he flew off. My last image of him, like an angel. 

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To people who doesn't know what alexithymia is check google!!!😂 Also if you don't know what "Y/N" it means Your Name. I didn't know that and struggled when I was reading ffs so yeah!

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