Well pain is something that I understand well. Sure many people show their pain but I'm not really one to be honest on how I feel. I like to hide and pretend I'm fine because, then I can actually help the others who are sad/lonely/glum/depressed so on so on..I really don't care if i'll never be happy because when I see other people smiling I think to myself 'I made that smile.' But I guess i just wanted to say how I feel today....So I feel lost I have this eager pain in my chest that is trying to make me lose sanity. I feel like I can barely hang on and that I can't hold onto the rope forever. The rope of pretend. The rope that makes all the sanity stay. That makes all the fake happiness real. Sometimes I get automatically depressed and I don't know why. I feel more alive in my own dreams I get this feeling that the world doesnt accept me for who I am. So really the only way I fit in is just pretending that I'm happy that I'm over the moon. Sometimes to see the rainbow there has to be a little rain but why still want to be alive, when all there is, is pain?
