I can't let go

The Beginning

The Beginning

It all started on a regular friday night i got dressed in my new jeans my favorite batman t shirt and some regular old sneakers. I had no idea what the night would lead to, if only id known.

I walked to the local youth hangout, walked up the many stairs leading to the entrance. When i reached the top i signed in then made my way to the gaming area. I wasn't someone who was really all that into video games but on n the other hand i was really into gamers. A certain gamer to be exact with medium length curly black locks and Chesnut brown eyes that made me feel as though he could se straight through me. I walked up behind him placed my hand on his chair and said hello. He turned around and smiled before turning his focus back to his game. I stayed there for a while acting as of i was watching the game, but really i was studying him. Admiring how he gazed at the screen with such focus i was almost jealous and how his lips twitched into a faint smirk every time he pulled off an advanced maneuver. Eventually the game came to a point on the game where they could pause it and food had arrived. I placed my hand on his shoulder and asked him of he'd like me to grab him a piece of pizza since i was going to the kitchen anyway

"Yes, pepperoni please." he said with a smile

His smile made my heart ache due to what i had assumed at the time was a harmless crush. i grabbed the food before heading back. When i returned he thanked me then instructed me sit next to him. He then told the girl next to him to let me have a turn. She grudgingly handed me thw controller but cheered up a bit after i said we could switch each round. When the round came to an end i turned around to hand the girl the controller and my heart sank when i saw him tickling her. Then unexpectedly he grabbed mw and started tickling my sides amused by my way to high pitched giggle which he would later tell me he loved. The night went on like that until one time he went to tickle me and cupped my boob subtly and obviously i was surprised buy i said nothing then things kinda escalated. He put his arm around me then slipped his hand into my shirt i was so smitten that i didn't stop him i so greatly wanted him to like me. After some inconspicuous fondling he leaned in his hot breath caressing my ear and whispered

Wanna leave early a seductive tone in his voice

Immediately my cheeks turned a bright pink as i stuttered out

"I-I'm a virgin."

He only smirked and responded with "good thing I'm a great teacher."

I wish i could go back and change things i wish i could just get a ride home or walk by myself when it was time to leave but i didnt i walked home with him and i lost my innocence to him that fateful night would be the night that my heart discovered love as well as the beginning that would lead to my first and still most painful heartbreak