After Her(On Hold)

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Amalia's pov

"I'm happy you found a job Lia. Call me when you need anything. Okay?" Came Emma's distressed voice  over the phone.

"Yeah Em. I'm fine. I'll call when I need you." I said as I entered Jacks house with the spare key he gave me. I've been working for Jack for two weeks now. I kind of like it here. I can definitely see myself living here for a few years. 

Jack is not a bad guy. He's almost never home so we don't really bump into each other. He's always out partying or the guys come over and they just chill and drink all day long. Jack has been very nice to me and doesn't treat me like shit. The only problem I have is his drinking and I'm sure you can understand why.

I almost forgot that I was still on the phone with Emma. She called me on my way over to Jacks house.

"Have you heard anything from them ? " I asked Em . She went quiet for a while and then answered.

"Jeff came by the Cafe asking if we've seen you. I said I didn't know anything and that you haven't been at work for weeks.  I think he believed me or I at least hope he did. "

I sighed not knowing what else to do.

"Thanks for all your help Em. I really appreciate it."

"Don't worry Lia.Liam and I won't let anything happen to you. "She said and even though she was trying her best to calm me down. It didn't work. There's only so much she and Liam could do for me. If Jeff and my mom wants to find me. They will no doubt make it happen.

"I know. Thanks Em. I have to go."I cut the call before she could respond. I dragged a hand through my hair. It seems to me that life just doesn't wanna give me a break.

"What's wrong? " I turned around and faced Jack. I straightened up and shook my head.

"Nothing.  I was just upset. That's all." He touched my  shoulder and I flinched away. I looked at him and I could swear I saw a look of hurt flash in his eyes but it left as quick as it came.

The rest of the day went by normally.  I cleaned and cooker dinner for Jack then made my way back home.

By the time i came back home i was exhausted. I took a bath ,made myself a sandwich and went straight back to bed.

When the next morning came i was more tired than usual. I couldnt blink an eye knowing that Jeff was out there looking for me. I even started getting nightmares again. Even though i moved away from home i know ill never truly be free from him. He'll follow me everywhere i go. If not in his living flesh than in my nightmares.

Nothing can describe the pain I feel. There isn't a day  when I don't think of the many times he has penetrated me, beat me and torture me. Sometimes I can still feel his breath in my neck and smell the alcohol and cigarettes on his clothes. I remember my mother watching how her boyfriend ruined her little girl over and over again not doing anything. I don't think ill ever be able to forgive her for what she has done. I know that in order for me to move on with my life and try to be happy I would have to forgive and forget but I just cant .I am not ready for forgiveness just yet.

Hey guys

I know i've been gone for a very long time but I just couldn't write  anymore. I lost my inspiration and i've been dealing with personal problems of my own.

however I have decided that i've been hibernating for way too long. I am back and I am ready to write. I hope you will still support me and that we will be as close as we once used too.

please vote and comment. I would love to hear from you .

thanks