Just an accident

chapter 6

CHAPTER 6

unsure of how to answer Lucy decided to stay calm and quite. How was she suppose to respond? She still confused on how quickly natsu left her mind...well mabey not quick. it took three an a half months before she eventualy stopped thinking of him .

she definatly felt different with laxus then she ever felt about Natsu. Natsu was a more sweet and a 'cant help but feel so bright and happy around him' kind of feeling. While laxus made her feel...Empowering, when he looked at her she felt like she was wanted, no needed.

He gave her a rush that sent her stomach in a flutter of butterflys and nerves. At first she had felt nervouse and confused when ever his eyes would gaze upon her, and how her body reacted. but then she began hoping he would look at her, begging silently that he would touch her . she loved it when occasionally she'd catch a glimpse of one of his rare smiles.

Her heart ached with unfamiler ach. she wanted to say something, anything but she didnt know what it was she needed to say. Wrapping her arms around his waist, a few stray tears slipped down her cheek unknown.

"thank you.." her voice a quite whisper, what she was thanking him for? she didnt know, only that she was thankfull.

from the distance They could distictly here Cana shouting their Names Looking for them.

Tearing himself away from her he turned away and started to make his way towards the shore. glancing back to make sure she was following. ' I don't know how she feels about me...about THIS thing we have going on. i dont want her to feel pressured.' Laxus's brows knitted together as he lost himself in deep thought.

Stepping out of the cerlean blue waters , white sand covered the rest of the beach, not waiting for to catch up he continued forward.

LUCY'S POV

Water glistened and dripped down his body with grace and beauty, his muscles bunched up tight under his skin;whitch was pulled taunt over them, like satin streached over Steel.

My eye's obidiantly followed trails of water droplets sliding down his back, the sudden strong urge to follow that trail with my tongue was almost too much.

Tearing my gaze away, i forced my body to start moving again pushing against the dense water.

Me...and Laxus...Laxus and me...What would thaat be like? would it work? Would it be weird if we ever split? Could we be friends after all of this? All of these Questions are easy to answer. Yes it would be explosive if we were . Yes , i dont know if i could ever be the same after something like that. No we crossed the line of being friends, theres no going back at this point. The Big question is...DO i LOVE HIM?...i dont know yet. i think its definatly possible.

im scarred though, if i let my self fall for him and something happens, ill break. I will crumble untill im nothing. if something ever happened i could NEVER look another man in the eyes, nor love him , and listen to him say 'i love you' because my heart wouldnt be mine. im scarred about letting him have me. To Let my self feel love for him.

Is this Pathetic? that i feel so deathly afraid of this? of whats happening to me? the idea of being in love with laxus?

maybe so but i cant help it.

" Lucy..." looking up i saw lillith looking at me through teary eyes. They wereglossy and blood shot, what exactly had happened.

"lillith hon...what happened? "Who the hell made her cry? whoever it was is gonna p-

" just come with me please, i could use a little cooling down."her voice sounded flat. no accent, no mixed in french, .

i nodded my head and wrapped my arm around her shoulder, leading her over to a bench were she had all of her things.i wonder what couldve happened to make her look so damned sad . she looked like a kicked puppy.

"mind if i...?" confused at her question i looked down to see her holding a tattoo gun. uh no.

" a Tattoo? um no..im fine." something permanent? no no no no. i wouldnt even know what to get.

" just shut up , sit down and untie your top, keep your back to me, cher. i promise you wont regret it. tattooing...keeps me calm hm'k?" she orded sternly, if it werent for her tear streacked face i couldve sworn she was fine. but i knew better.

Knealing down i bared my back to her. this wasnt exactly what i was expecting but i could manage. I felt the cool needle touch my spine, jolting slightly at the cool touch .

anxiaty twisted and gnashed at her stomach, eating at her nerves. Lucy's silky blonde tresses were pulled up into into a loose bun. loose tendrils, falling down around her face is waves. Large doe eye's shone a brillinant honey color with the light reflecting in shimmers.

plump pink lips were set into a nervouse pout, as she fidgeted and squirmed in her spot,as thousands of tiny little needles continuoustly stabbed her.

"Hold still cher, im go'in to stab ya real bad if you keep movin." Lillith's icy blue eye's narrowed to a glare as she struggled to calm the nervouse blonde. smooth lines and intricate stokes made there way across lucy's back, as lillith created a beautiful sceane unfolding on lucy's smooth ,pale skin.

"im sorry Lillith, it just that im nervouse, this is my first tattoo." her voice was gentle and soft, as she uttered the away the blood , lillith switched inks and went back to inking her skin.

"And it'll look great, when im done, just sit still sugah' im almost there." She spoke slowly as she concetrated on filling in lucy's tattoo.

nawing on her poor obused lip, lucy debated telling lilith something. " Lillith... he told me loved me." her voice broke towards the end.

lillith stilled momentarilly.

"And?..." she proded curiously,her hand making another swift line across her spine.

"and i didnt respond...im scarred lillith. This isnt something for me to take lightly ... i have this feeling if i allowed my self to fall in love with him, and something were to happen like , for him to fall out of love, or dissapear, DIE even,anything at all... i dont know if i could recover. its like this isnt some sort of crush were you go out break up and move on lilith, this is...so much .And im scarred of it."her voice quivvered, and shook , with each word uttered.

lillith stayed deathly quiet as she switched out her inks again. and returning to finish, the tattoo, intricate vines wrapped and weaved themselvs together tightly , branching out and over the celtic patterns surrounding the ouroboro.

" Then run away. pretend nothing between you ever even happened...If your that scarred then leave. Act as if you never even acknolaged his existance," her words came out harsh and cold."But if your only scarred of what it could be then you need to stop thinking of 'What if's' and just do it. Take a damn chance, put your self out there., let it flow. i have one question for you though."

lillith set down the tattoo gun and rubbed her hands across her face.

" Would you be ok if he was with someone else, and wasnt in love with you and never would be?" Lillith's question shot a deep unbearable ach through out lucy's heart. Her hand reaching up to grasp at the dull ach in her chest.

Swollowing the lump in her throat, She spoke what she felt. " i dont think i could bear that kind of feeling." Lucy's throat felt as if it were swollen shut, and her tongue felt thick and heavy. Seeing him with another would be toture.

But lillith's next words shook her so deeply.

"Them mabey the feeling's you harbor for him is love."

'Could i have fallen for him with out even relizing it myself? ' lucy blinked away the tears that she held back. still shook by the idea that may have alread fallen in love with him with out even relizing it. Desperate for a change in subject she spoke once again.

" so arew you...um ready to tell me what was wrong." lillith glanced up at lucy, surprised by her question.

" i think...i might have ...aquired feeling for someone."