I Am Not As Fine As I Seem

Pretend

Pretend. Something most of us play as little kids and sometimes even now. I do, but not the way we did as kids. I pretend that I'm happy. I pretend that I'm okay and that everything is fine. But it's not. Everything is not fine. I'm not okay and I'm not happy. But yet I still pretend.

I Pretend

        I Pretend 

                I Pretend. I'm okay while on the inside I'm screaming for help. Can't you hear? I pretend I'm fine while my heart breaks. Can you feel it? I pretend I'm happy when really I'm dying inside. Can't you see? I know I need help. Yet I pretend I don't.

I Pretend 

        I Pretend

                I Pretend. So I don't hurt those around me. I pretend. So I don't drag them down with me. I pretend. Even as I watch the blood drip from my wrists. I pretend. Even as I prepare to kill myself. I pretend.

I Pretend

        I Pretend

                I Pretend. After all no one will miss me.

                                              Right?