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Richie tozier- Hold on part 1 (trigger warning)

(An: this story is going to include suicide and sad stuff so if you don't want to cry or are sensitive to those topics don't read)
*y/n pov*
This is it, I'm ending it all today after school. Let me give you a little backstory.
My mom divorced my dad last year and he turned into a heavy alcoholic... a violent one. Every weekend I have to go to his house and he just makes me clean the whole time and if I do something that he doesn't like, he hits me. And the cherry on top of all this is Henry bowers. It would be harder naming something he hasn't done. Anyway...
During school, I wanted to spend as much time as I could with my friends aka the "losers club". I spent all day with them, before school, lunch, some of them were in most of my classes, and after school. One more then the others, and that was Richie. I've had a crush on him since I first saw him. But, I know he will never have the same feelings for me as I do with him. I've tried to forget about it but I can't.
After school, we all met up in front of the school as usual.
"D-d-do you guys want to go to the q-quarry?" Bill asked. I always tried to avoid the quarry as much as I could on account of the fact how insecure I am. Everyone except me and Richie excepted. "No...um my mom needs me for something." I said which was a total lie. " nah, not today." Richie said. "Ok, see you guys tomorrow" bev said. "Probably not" I said only low enough so I could hear. I told everyone bye knowing that would be the last time I see them and they see me. After the goodbyes me and Richie hoped on our bikes and started home. Me and Richie live about a block away from each other so he usually drives me home.
After about 15 minuets of small talk we reach my house. When we stoped, I hoped off my bike and put the stand up. "Bye y/n, see you later" Richie said. Under my breath I just said "nope". "What?" Richie asked. I guess he heard me. "Oh... nothing" I said. "Ok, bye" he said waving at me as he rode away. I took in the last look of him riding away, the last time I would see the love of my life. The thought of it brought tears to my eyes.
I waked in side my house and up to my room and started writing my note.
*time skip to after the note is done*
After I finished, I read it over again and left a few tears on the piece of paper. My note read: "To whoever is reading this, I'm sorry. To my friends, this was not your guys fault, in fact you guys are the only people that made me stay this long. To my family, I love you guys so much, even dad. He might have abused me but I still love him. To Richie, I'm so sorry, I loved you so so much, and not in a friend way. I've loved you since the moment I layed eyes on you, but you will never have the same feelings for me. Good bye for the last time."
After reading it over, I placed it on the kitchen table and went to my bathroom. I went to the medicine cabinet and got a bottle of my moms pain killers and took the rest of the bottle and just waited. When I started to doze off, I heard a knock at the door.
*Richies pov*
After I got home, I started thinking of y/n, but not I the usual way. Today she seemed a lot more quiet and wasn't telling as many jokes as usual. I've had a crush on y/n since I first saw her. She was my soul mate, but she didn't love me the way I loved her. She didn't seem right today and I didn't get a good feeling about it. Something was telling me to go to her house and check on her, so I did. I rode over to her house which wasn't very far. When I got there I knocked on her door but no one answered. I knocked a second time and still no one answered. I remember y/n saying something about a key under a pot on her porch, and sure enough there was one. I unlocked the door and walking in. I called for y/n but no answer. I checked her room and the living room and she wasn't there. I checked the kitchen and there was a paper on the table. And since I'm nosing I read it. After reading it I ran to the bathroom to find y/n passed out on the floor. I pulled her in and felt her weak heart beat on my chest. I ran to the phone to call for an ambulance. They were here 5 minuets later.

(An: that's it for now. I'm sorry it's so long, I have a lot of time on my hands. Anyway, I love you all my beautiful people. Stay cool. Bye 👋)
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