The Theory Of Me

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How do successful people become successful? What separates them from average people? From what I learned, and I'm not really an expert, that successful people don't waste time on petty things. While the others are busy playing, resting, writing or talking they are constantly learning, working and adapting. You might start to see this in people if you focus. Some will not achieve anything while others will just accomplish one goal after the other. Then, in the end, you will wonder how did they become successful Will you blame it on luck? or will you recognize their hard work? 

Do not fear failure. It is normal and it means that you tried. You will never know how things turn out if you never attempt it. Why are you so scared? We all failed. Yes, many many times before, yet we are still standing. The real failure is never trying, never knowing yourself and never being different. Many people want to do stuff be more than what they are but sadly, It is all just talk. They never try to reach their goals. It might not be of fear but it is still failure. I don't want to be like them I want to strive to reach my goals and I want to change the world.

I might be just a person, just a kid but I know that if I work hard enough I might be able to change the world. I might've lied to myself, told myself that I am different as a placebo but as long as I believe in myself, I might be able to do something. We are born as blank slates start weak and helpless but gradually grow and learn. With growth comes learning with learning comes experiment with it comes failure and then comes experience. This is the basic principle of the scientific method. I fear average and complying to the norm. I don't want to have a boring mundane, stale and a never changing office job. I want to be in a place that is constantly changing and adapting to the world's needs where no 2 days are the same where people use their minds and intellect to guide the world.

I wasted a lot of time. Many hours have gone on games and "rest". What if I just used them to learn something new. Even if it was for just 15mins a day how different would I be? Maybe a better person? A really good programmer? Experienced hacker? Or an amazing engineer? but there are days when I was productive and tried different approaches to learning. Maybe this is the reason I got a wide skillset or even the reason that I'm able to understand every possible explanation. Was it my obsession with thought experiments, brain games and the placebo effect that lead me down this path? What if it was the reason I felt confident. I don't know how to feel knowing that some of my defining characteristics are a placebo or a mask. If that was really the case who is the real me?