Diary of the Day

Today Sucked.

Today was terrible. I go onto the bus and I see Slay jumping in his seat and Hunter seems weird. I try to talk to her and she kind of ignores me... When I found out Slay dared her to ignore me and she listened.... dumb but what got me upset was that I like like her and I want to ask her out but I'm scared. I thought she was trying to ask me out but she was just ignoreing me..... Slay whispered "She doesn't really like you. She doesn't really want to talk. No joke." so yeah. I was hurt and thought that... I saw her and was upset. I know she was upset. I consider her my girlfriend in a way but I was disappointed she gave into that... I love her with all my heart and I will. Always. No matter what. I just want to hug her and cry on her shoulder. But I can't because I'm not next to her... so I can't.... I saw her story and it made. It made me cry harder than I've ever cried before... I have never felt this way before about anyone... I love her and I need her... I want to support her. But I can't. I wish I could.... but I can't.... I'm still crying right now... I wish I could say sorry for hurting her feelings... It's my fault. I want to hug her and make her feel better. I want to fix her heart with love. I ripped part of her heart and soul... I'm a stubborn. And stupid. And I don't deserve Hunter. Right now, I have no real access to a phone so all I can do until tomorrow is write and read. If your reading this, I forgive you.... it's not your fault... I fall into pure pressure..... a lot. We all learn from our faults... I need to learn...