Sherl Shots

Back to You

Shout-out to @MORIARTYS. You're the only one who voted on Johnlock and I couldn't resist temptation. I'm weak -_-

John POV:

Took you like a shot
Thought that I could chase you with the cold evening
Let a couple years watered down how I'm feeling about you

I inhale sharply and shift in my seat. It still haunts me, the smile that was on his face the night of our wedding. Him leaving early. I mean, who does that?

And every time we talk
Every single word builds up to this moment
And I gotta convince myself I don't want it even though I do

What is it with this song? It feels too real. But... I don't wanna turn the radio off. It's like this woman is saying the words I never will. The words I never can say.

You could break my heart in two
But when it heals
It beats for you
I know it's forward but it's true

I eye the radio. Selena Gomez running over the screen in blue digital font. He did break my heart in two and when it healed, it beat for him. Sherlock Holmes. The perfect idiot.

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to
When I'm lying close to someone else

A physical ache spreads through my chest. I park the car on the side of the road, my eyes too watery for me to see clearly. I lean with my forehead pressed against the steering wheel.

You're stuck in my head
And I can't get you out of it

Why? Why did I marry her? I knew I loved him. I knew it. But... I don't know.

If I could do it all again
I know I'd go back to you

I lift my head and look at the road ahead. No, I'm not going home. I put the car in reverse and do an illegal U-turn. I push 90mph and weave through traffic.

I know I'd go back to you

I skip a red light and nearly cause an accident. The driver of the red Honda pick up swears incoherently as I leave him behind.

I know I'd go back to you

I skid my way through a turn, making pedestrians yell in fright and anger.

Never got it right
Playing and replaying old conversations
Overthinking every word
And I hate it cause it's not me

I bite back my tears and swallow my apologies. I'll tell the bugger in person how sorry I am.

And what's the point of hiding?
Everybody knows we got unfinished business
And I regret it if I didn't say this isn't
What it could be

I chuckle. Everyone knows. I might as well get it out there.

You could break my heart in two
But when it heals it beats for you
I know it's forward
But it's true

I burn the tar as I push the brakes on the car. I stumble out the car and onto the pavement, my hands shaking and my heart missing it's beat.

I wanna hold you
When I'm not supposed to
When I'm lying close to someone else
You're stuck in my head
And I can't get you out of it
If I could do it all again
I know I'd go back to you

"Sherlock!" I call, my hands cupped around my mouth. The curtain in the lounge peels open, revealing Sherlock's lanky body. His face is riddled with surprise just before the curtain falls closed.

"I need to talk to you!" I yell, some people sending me a look.

I hear Sherlock talk to Mrs H then the door opens to Sherlock wearing his red gown, the fabric draped beautifully over his thin, pale figure.

What was there
Wasn't sure
But I'd go back to you

I'd go back to you

Sherlock closes the door behind him then faces me with his green eyes piercing my soul.

"I've made a mistake," I say advancing toward him.

"I'd say so," he says in a raspy whisper "This isn't your flat."

You can break my heart in two

"I mean a mistake involving you,"

But when it heals it beats for you

Sherlock frowns.

"What are you on about John?"

I know it's forward but it's true
Won't lie, I'd go back to you

"I shouldn't have married her," I admit. I take Sherlock's hand in mine. He stares down at our hands.

Now my thoughts are running loose
It's just a thing you make me do

"I should've seen you, Sherlock,"

And I could fight it
But what's the use?
I know I'd go back to you

"I should've waited,"

"I should've told you,"

"I should've been more than me,"

"More than clueless John Watson,"

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to
When I'm lying close to someone else

"I can't change the past,"

"Or alter the present,"

You're stuck in my head
And I can't get you out of it
If I could do it all again

"But I can try to fix the one thing I never knew I needed,"

"The one person I never knew I needed,"

I know I'd go back to you

"That's why I'll say it now,"

I look at his tear lined eyes, the ache in my chest nearly crippling.

"I love you,"

I'd go back to you
I'd go back to you

I smash my lips against his, he tastes like bitter alcohol and salt. I tangle my fingers in his messy curls, him placing his hands on my hips.

I know I'd go back to you

I pull away, leaving Sherlock with his eyes closed and tears sliding down his cheeks.

I'd go back to you
I'd go back to you

"I'm sorry," I say taking the taller man in my arms and holding him tight. He wraps his spindly arms around my shoulders and buries his face in my neck.

"I'm sorry too," he mumbles.

I know I'd go back to you

unedited.