i didnt know when did i start to realize that i have anxiety.
actually, im not even sure of myself.
all this time, people look at me like im one of those girls that can live without anyone's help or even having partner in my life because they see me living off my life fine by myself.
but im not.
not at all. ive been lying to those people, ive been lying them by acting tough at the outside. and ive also been lying to myself.
infact i had to. in order to survive.
e.g
seeing me commute from school to home all by myself at 3am, going through that shitty backlane with arabics offering me for some weed. not being racist though, its what really happened to me. As they thought that i actually brave enough so they wont even bother to offer me a help or even trying to make friends with me.
Bullshits.
ive been living in fear all this time and yet no one even try to reach me out to help me and theres the campaign that says tryna help those people like but why i see no one of you guys do that.
am i being delusional with my anxiety?
i tried to socialize, mix around with -well, my classmates- and yeah nothings change. they have always being so sarcastic like when i said something in thr group chat, they have this one habit. to tag someone with the quoted text of mine and going around teasing me.
to me, its fucking annoying and offensing.
Thankyou for being such assholes and adding more problem to my mental issue.
ffs, what did i do to even deserve this whole situation?
