Silent Tears

"I Think You Just Fell For Me" Chapter;3

Chapter 3

A cold hand stirs me out of my sleep it presses against my side, nudging me. A soft voice fills my ears "Tay, wake up." My eyes slowly open, a dark blob appearing in my vision. My sight starts to slowly appear, the person, my brother becoming clearer.

"Zac?" My voice comes out in a croak

My eyes widen in fright, I scramble up, my sides burning in pain. My eyes dart around the room quickly as I grab Zacs hands, slowly moving backwards.

My heartbeat quickens, fear taking over, "Z-Zac he was here and-"

"He's gone." My eyes find his green ones, that were connected to the floor, sadness masking them "I should've been there Tay! I would've protected you like the brother I am!" He says anger lacing his voice

I shake my head "No, I wouldn't of want you to get hurt Zac, you're my everything" I softly say

He takes my face in his hands, his eyes landing on my bruises, I wince, pulling away from his hold. His hand come up, angrily ruffling up his hair "Look at you! Look at what he's done to you!" he yells,

I take my hand in his, exact toffee colour skin glazing from the sun shining through the window "We'll get through this, ok? I'll protect you, we will get out of this. Together." I say softly

He shakes his head, jaw clenching "Not good enough." He says " I can't just sit there and keep watching you get hurt!"

I close my eyes, trying to fight away the tears that are trying to come down, right now I need to be brave, for him. "Please, just trust me ok? I promise I will get us out of this." I walk up to him, bringing him into a tight hug. "I promise."

And that I will. I've always kept that promise, I just haven't done it yet, I know it's stupid, it's really really stupid, the things we go through, I go through. I squeeze him tighter, closing my eyes. I'm scared, and that scares me even more. I can just never face him. I pretend I'm strong, that I can face the world, but really I can't. But no one will ever know that, not even Zac. I have to keep him safe, and by doing that I need to be strong. For him.

Zac, my little brother. He's only a few years younger than me, but he is still my little baby. I couldn't have gotten through this without him, he's keeping me from breaking into pieces, keeps me strong. We've gone through everything together, he's my whole world, he brings light into my dark world. But, sometimes that light can only go so far. My heart sinks of that feeling, the loneliness.

I pull out of his hold, slightly wincing in pain, He eyes me warily, green eyes full of worry. "Tay, you don't need to go to school today-"

I shake my head "I'm fine, it's just a couple bruises. Nothing I'm not used to" His eyes fill up with sadness, a slight frown forming on his face "I'm ok Zac. He'll be gone for a couple of weeks anyway," he slowly nods "Now please go get ready"

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I look in the mirror, purple bruises covering my toffee complexion, I shake my head in disgust, gosh what have I become? I grab some foundation and cover-up my bruises, hiding my inner demons, I frown. His sickening face invading my thoughts. He's never here, he's always on some business trip racking up money to waste on drugs and alcohol.

I sigh, when he comes back he hurts me, always saying "it's my fault for Maria's death." I don't know who Maria is, but he somehow blames me for her death. I smile weakly at my reflection, my hands tracing over the many scares he gave me. A slight tear falls from my cheek, the cold texture I'm so familiar with grazing my lips. I quickly wipe it away.

Mariah...

It sounds so similar, but I have no memory of who she is.

I lick my dry, bruised lips, pulling my curls in a messy bun. Taking a deep breath in I quickly get dressed into some blue jeans and a black tank top. I slip on some vans and look down at the small watch on my wrist.