StrayKids Imagines

Suicide- Han

Warning! This Chapter contains Suicidal thoughts and actions if you are sensitive with this kinds of things do not read... 

(Your P.O.V)

"Yes, I already got home." you told your Boyfriend Han Jisung on the phone.

"Good, did you already drink your medicine?" he asks again.

"I already did sir." you chuckled at how demanding he is.

"I'll come visit on Saturday after practice. I love you Jagi. Goodnight :*" he cheerly said.

"Ne I can't wait. Love you more Jagi Goodnight." You said before hanging up.

You were on your laptop scrolling on Instagram when a comment on Han's Account gets your attention. "She and Han oppa don't even look good together like seriously?! She's not even that pretty! Han oppa leave her she's just wasting your time!!!" a comment said. Your heart clenched at the post. You and Han just revealed your relationship tonight and this is already happening.

As you were scrolling down looking at the comments there were a lot of hate rather than good comments a lot of them saying: "B*tch stealing our oppa!" "Pathetic she's so ugly! Oppa find someone better." "F*ck whore!" "FAME SEEKER!!!" "I'll kill you, b*tch" and more. You coudn't help but to tear up with all the hate comments they say you thought 'I mean they're telling the truth I'm not pretty or sexy or talented I'm just a nobody but Han liked me...' a sob escaped your lips.

You closed your laptop and ran to the bathroom locking the door. You sobbed all the pain away, 'people around me thinks I'm useless even my Parents think that... I'm just nothing!' You thought. You looked at your drawers inside your bathroom and found a blade. Checking it on your thumb it was shard you watch as drops of blood drip down from your thumb it stings a little but you couldn't care less. You guide the blade to your wrist and cut it slowly blood dripping out you feel nothing your body was numb. You washed the blade and put it back in the drawer. You washed the sink so no one will know about those. You just cried yourself to sleep.

It was Thursday another day at school you sat up from your bed and looked at your wrist. It was no longer bleeding. You wore a long sleeved shirt and ripped pants so you can hide your scars.

(At School)

You enter the school campus but as you walk the hallways people were staring at you whispering. "She's Han's Girlfriend right?" "Urghh!! She's not even pretty!""Seriously girl your a lot more prettier than her." and a lot more..

You ignored their stares and walked to your locker when you opened it a bunch of crumpled papers fell to the floor some were even left inside your locker you picked one reading what it says. 'Die B*tch'.

A tear fell from your eyes. This was all too much. You picked up all the papers throwing them all the trash can you can hear them laughing at you...

You left the hallways out of the school and to your house. Your mom and Dad were not home for they went on a business trip like always... You were alone at your house running to your room your cried your eyes out and fell asleep.

You woke up and it was already night time... You went to the bathroom and your eyes were all messy. You were a mess... Taking the blade from the drawer you started to cut your self deeper and deeper. Blood pooling your arms and the floor. You heard the door open seeing Jisung standing on the door way. Looking shocked. The blade slipped from your hands to the blood on the floor.

"What the F*ck are you doing?!" he shouted anger evident in he's voice.
"Are you crazy?" he grabbed your arm causing you to wince because you arm was full of cuts. He made you sit on the bed. "Are you on drugs or something?!" he shouted clearly angered.

"Y-you don't kno-know how I fe--el." you sobbed harder it was hard to breathe and your eyes are getting heavier due to loss of blood. You stood up stumbling a little before you ran out of the house going to your friend Felix house.

You knocked on the door. "Y/N you-- what happened to you your bleeding and- (Y/N)!!!" Was the last thing you heard before falling to darkness.

You woke up feeling someone beside you, opening your eyes you saw Han's worried face while cleaning your cuts. 'How long was I out?' you thought.

"(Y/N) Thank God your awake. How do you feel?" He asked sounding worry.

You couldn't bear to look at him hearing him say those words you couldn't help but sob.

"What hurts? tell me." he asked panicking.

You looked at him in his eyes.

"You did." you chocked out. He looked away pain and regret evident on his face.

"Jagi, I'm sorry." He looked at you in the eyes. "I didn't knew what happened until Felix told me, If I only knew earlier I could've stood up for you and protected you. I shouldn't have shouted or told you those things Jagi, I'm sorry." He hugged you tightly. "Please I'm sorry don't leave me, I don't know what I'll do without you, I can't I--Please don't leave me." He broke down.

"I won't leave you." You whispered. "Ever. I love you too much to do that." 

"I promise to protect you and take better care of you from now on." He kissed your forehead. "Saranghae."

"Nado Saranghae." 

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