WORDS{ PJM Is A Mute}

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I was hunched up against the wall on the roof the only barrier stopping me from my death.
I was there pathetically sobbing because i couldn't kill myself i wanted to die so bad to leave this earth that has done nothing for me. But i can't. I can't leave jungkook.I'm so selfish actaully thinking about leaving him. actually thinking about letting him suffer alone day in day out till he  meets the same  pathetic demise i did.

Pathetic i am truely pathetic and i hate myself. I hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me. I let out a loud scream and start rocking backwards and forewards with uneven pants.
I'm doing it.
I don't care.
I'm fucking doing it.
I stand up slowly wincing from the pain in my  ankle but ignore it. I climb the ledge i can see everything the busy bustling of life outside of school. The kids hiding from teachers as they try to skip. It's summer so the trees  are full and pretty a sight.
-a pretty sight i want to die to. I slowly rock fowards and backwards closing my eyes.
If i jump it will all be over I'll be set free from the pain chaining me to unhappiness.
Hyung
Jungkook?
No no no don't do this
Hyung why did you leave he beats me becuase you died i want to die i hate myself
An image of Jungkook beaten his skin different shades from the abuse all hope and joy drained from his eyes.
He.Was.Broken.
Jungkook no i love you I'll save you I'll save us both.
With that i stood down of the ledge and wiped my tears to turn around and see a wide eyed boy staring at me wait that's Taehyung.
Shit

We stare at eachother for a while thoughts fill my mind about how he'll mock me how he knows my secret whether I'll get bullied now if I'm no longer safe anywhere
But instead  he runs up and hugs me pushing us both onto the floor of the roof. "I Thought you were going to die dude" he sobbed wait is he crying because me? I rub his back to try and comfort him which makes him cry louder and hold onto me tighter. "Dude, jimin why would you do that like i don't know your life but i know your worth living". That took me aback he knows my name and he cares he cares about..me. This makes me hug him back tight my face fell into the crook of his neck as i sobbed  quietly. He cares about me.
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Taehyung and i spent the rest of the school day on the roof and although i never spoke it felt nice he told me about his family his life and he joked alot doing agyeo and cringey shit to cheer me up. He didn't ask about why i was like this, it was like he knew i would crawl back my safety shell if he did. When the bell rang it hurt more than usual i felt normal today yoongi and Taehyung really made today special i laughed alot with taehyung something i haven't done in years. And yoongi made me smile truly smile and feel emotions I've never felt.
I looked down and fiddled with my hands. I want to say thank you but i don't know how i want taehyung to know so i kiss him on the cheek and give the biggest smile big enough that i can feeling my eyes disappear.
"Your welcome jimin" he smiles back with that cute boxy smile that is now an imagine burnt in my brain  to remind me of happy moments.
I stand up take my bag and limp towards the door i give one last look towards Taehyung giving me a big wave and leave chuckling to myself.
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I got home to a scream a deafening scream belonging to jungkook. I throw my bag onto the floor and run into the living seeing a small jungkook huddled into a corner clutching his shoulder. His sick son of a bitch father laughing with a broken glass bottle in his hand.
He fucking- my jungkook. I ran up towards him pushing him hard onto the floor then looked at jungkook signaling him to go to our hiding place. The one my mum found for us. She used to distract him from us and we hid now i distract him and jungkook hides.
If I'm gone who will distract him from jungkook?

Do we all share the same devil or he is different as we fight our different battles?

Jeon yeonso is my devil the man who ruined my life jungkook's father and my step father.
He stood up wobbling towards me "fuck you you piece of shit" he spat viscously as he punched me in the stomach hard winding me but i was still standing. Till he is tired i won't let him get to jungkook. My ankle was throbbing with pain screaming for attention, for me to sit down but i ignored it. Agian another blow never to the face yeonso was too smart to make it obvious or draw attention that's why  he hated the fact i never spoke. He kicked me in the ankle like he knew. i screamed loudly, clutching my ankle using all my strength not to faint there and then. He chuckled satisfied with my reaction kicked it again and again "speak bitch and I'll stop it's that easy" i shook my head and he went harder causing me to scream louder. That's  when i heard jungkook running down the stairs no what is he doing that idiot speak jimin speak jimin JIMIN SPEAK FOR JUNGKO-
"Leave him alone! you drunk prick you know I count myself as an orphan because something as disgusting as you should never have children" with that yeonso lost all interest in me he dragged  jungkook by his hair into the living pushing him into me. "You are both not worth it I'm going out i want this house clean" he glared at us and with that left. We heard the door slam and both let out deep breathes. Then the as the adrenalin left and more pain came and i couldn't help but whimper holding my ankle.
"Hyung" he sounded so worried he ran out and came back with ice easing it slowly onto my ankle. I gave him a small smile my eyes on my ankle. "Hyung I'll clean today you rest on the couch" i nodded i would just slow us down in my state. He helped me onto the couch.

Jungkook talked excitedly about the group of friends he made how they invited him over for a sleepover, we both knew he couldn't go but the fact that he was even been invited to one made him light up and reveal his blessing of a bunny smile. Jungkook has lived his whole life like this he hasn't even had a play date although he's too old for that now. Jungkook's mother died giving birth to him and he's fathers always been shitty I still don't understand how my mother fell for yeonso but it happened. I let out a small sigh thinking about my mum and dad jungkook really makes me grateful for the time i had with my parent's. I wish he could experience happiness before all of his innocence is taken by that devil.
I signal for him to give me his phone and start typing.

You are going to that sleepover no matter what!
"Hyung how he would never allow me"
Just go and that day I'll distract him
"Hyung that won't work" i can hear he truly believes this but i know it will.
Would i suggest it if i wasn't 100% certain
"No hyung" he was silent for while and then "I'm going I'M GOING TO A SLEEPOVER" he squealed jumping all over the place. I wish i could be happy with him but distracting his father mea- don't think about it not until the sleepover.
What day?
"Saturday"
i give a nod today is monday so i have five days to pepare myself. It will be okay it'll be fine.
Will it really what if i chiken out and he realises jungkook isn't there?

Sacrifice is a form of true love in my eyes that you would give up everything for someone

Jungkook finished with the house and i checked but there was still no food. I hope he enjoyed the sandwich. "Hyung wait" jungkook ran to our room and came back with a bag full of ramen and chips sausages even egg. I tilt my head and raise my eyebrow i know he doesn't have enough money for this. "I won a raffle. The ticket cost nothing so my friend gave it to me and i won a coupon so i bought food today."  Why was he so thoughtful most kids his age would waste on sweets or games but not my jungkook I'm glad he's going to the sleepover he deserves it even if I have to- he deserves it.
I nodded and boiled some water for the ramen. We ate that day in silence having not eaten properly for days now. One cup of ramen seemed to fill the both of us up which was worrying yet at least it meant more food for the rest of the days.

I lay in bed with jungkook writing 'its okay in the palm' as he fell alseep it became a habbit ever since i stopped speaking  jungkook would cry at night so i would right its okay to comfort him as I was unable to speak those words.

Today was a good day we ate till we were full,yoongi noticed me he even gave me his apple, taehyung cheered me up and jungkook protected me. Today was a good day i have people that care about me. With that i felt myself dose off.
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Awww how cute sooooo i hope yall are enjoying this so far.
Jimin always says jungkook reminds him of his younger brother so why not just make him it
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