Letter to Jason

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Dear Jason

I know you will hate me forever, but it won't matter because I won't know. I'll already be dead by the time you read this.

You are my best friend and the most important person in my life, but even that can't block the torture I am forced to face each day.

My father just died last week. I never told you because I didn't want you to see me cry. His cancer spread quickly, and he didn't recover.

My mother has lost it. She just couldn't take it, I suppose. She drinks too much, and often yells or breaks things. I don't feel safe in my own home anymore.

People at school still aren't understanding of my problems. I try not to show weakness, but I do. Hillary took my clothes from the locker room the other day, and I had to borrow clothes from a friend.

Nobody except for you cares, and I feel like an awful person to be doing this to you, but I can't take it anymore.

I can't live on this planet anymore.

I'm really sorry, but I hope you understand me. It took everything I had to even finish writing this letter before finally ending it all.

Stay happy, Jason, although it will be hard. Perhaps one day you will find me again, when your time comes too. Hopefully your time will not come soon. I want you to live a full life. Now, listen carefully to my last wish.

Finish school. I know you aren't the best student, but at least finish high school. Do it for me. I always planned to finish school and have a successful career. Please do this for me.

Visit my father's grave. I had always wanted to, but I felt weak to cry at his gravestone. Leave him a bouquet of pink roses. He would always bring those to me when I was sad. I can't wait to see him again.

Finally, my last and most important wish, is to never do what I have done. Never commit suicide. It isn't the answer, and I know that, but I can't seem to convince myself to find another way.

Continue to love life, Jason. Do it for me. I may be greedy for doing this to you, but I know that you understand me. Or maybe someday you will.

Goodbye,

Jane.

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