Letter to a Friend

Letter to Jane

Dear Jane,

I know I am too late to send you a letter, but I can't seem to fully accept it. I don't hate you. I'm just disappointed that you gave up so quickly.

You had your whole life ahead of you. You could have gotten married, maybe even started a family. You could've been a brain surgeon like you had always dreamed.

I plan to finish school for you. I'll even go to college, even though I hadn't planned to. I'm going to have a successful career, and have lots of fun at the same time.

I went to your father's grave as well. I left him the pink roses that you asked for. I cried at his gravestone, something you were too ashamed to do when you were alive.

Unlike you, I will never end my life. After all, I have promises to keep, such as school and my career.

I still keep hoping in my mind that this is all a sick joke. Please say it's a joke. I won't even be mad, I promise. Just please say it is a joke.

I'm going to try to stay strong, Jane, but my heart may never be fully healed. I think about you alot. I saw a rainbow yesterday, and it reminded me of how excited you got whenever you saw one. I took a picture for you. I left a copy with this note, just in case.

You are everything to me Jane. I wish you had thought more before you ended everything. You could've at least payed me a visit, a real visit.

I won't judge you. I know it's hard to stay positive, but it is difficult to fully understand.

I hope you found your father. I hope that wherever you are, you are happy. I hope one day I will see you again. Far in the future, when I am old yet you will still be young.

Until next time,

The friend you left behind.