First Love

Untitled Part 1

Is love to be studied? Is love also to be learned? It's hard to answer right? But for me, it's not to be studied and learned. We just felt it as a human. You don't know when it hit you, why you felt that way, and where you first felt it. They say, if your heart beats faster without any reason, you are hit by the arrows of Cupid. Yes it's true because it was the first thing I felt when I first saw her. I am Sean Loirage Martinez and this is the story of my first love and my first heartbreak.

The alarm clock rang. It was a sign that I need to wake up but I off it because I am still drowsy. I woke up hurriedly when my mother called me downstairs. When I saw the time, it's already 6 A.M. I hurriedly get up and took a bath. After preparing myself, I hurriedly ate my breakfast and left the house. When I arrived to school, I greeted the guard.

"Good morning guard.", I quickly ran to the school grounds.

In a hurry, I accidentally bump a girl. My world stopped as well as my heart. I can't explain what I feel that time. I stopped daydreaming when she asked me,

"Are you okay? I'm sorry.", and she left.

I cannot move straight to where I stand until my classmate tapped me.

"What happened to you? Why are you smiling alone?"

I answer him, "Nothing. I am happy because I saw an angel a while ago." There I told myself that I was I hit by the arrows of cupid.

Few days ago, when I hit her, I can't forget about her. Her beautiful face is always on my mind. I didn't see her in the campus. I don't know also her name and course. I went to the bench to wind up. Someone got my attention. The angel that accidentally bumped to. She sat alone while writing. She is so calm while sitting. She wears eyeglasses. Her hair is so smooth and shiny. She has fair skin and pointed nose. I was entertained while looking at her. I gradually fell in love to her. Suddenly my classmate tapped me.

"Hey, why are you smiling again?", he said.

"I saw an angel again." I replied.

"Where?" he replied.

I looked back at the bench where she sat, she's gone. I was disappointed. She's always gone when I see her. Is it always to be like this? Are we not destined for each other? Or is it me who assumed that we are destined for each other?

She became my inspiration. I went to school early. Hoping that I will see her and hoping that I will know her name. I'm happy and contented even though she's still far away from me.

For how many months, I don't see her in school since she was sitting on the bench. I'm busy in my academics because I am a graduating student. I forgot about her and also my feelings for her. While I was walking on the corridor, someone bumped me. I helped her because her things fall on the floor. When I looked at her, the girl I want to see long time ago. I reminisced all the happenings. It's my chance to know her name but she left already. My heart beats fast. I can't explain what I feel this time. I am so confused if it is love or infatuation.

I continue walking the corridor going to my room. I am thinking that when I will know her name? hoping that we will cross each other's part again so that I will know her.

Many months have passed, it's my graduation day. All are very happy but it's my saddest day. You know why? I saw my angel with a boy. It is very painful for me seeing my girl with another boy. All I have to do is to accept this reality of me. There's no space for us. There is no between me and her. There is no chance for us to know each other.