Alice Collins Book 2 *Completed* BWWM

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Later on Chris walks in. "I'm sorry tha-" He says but I cut him off. "You can't be sorry they picked you and you accepted. I'm mad to see that you don't understand why I feel this way. It's not because I don't want you to do it. It's just that  you need to help me out on this. YouTube is not going to be everything that you want. I work for more than 4 things right now. You *points at him*, your only doing YouTube and taking care of the kids every man would love to do those two things and still get their wife. I don't want to go through this anymore. I just want you to go." I say to him. I turn around not facing him. "Is it the kids that is changing us?" he says. It sounds like he is crying. I turn around. "No. It's not the kids. It's us. We are losing it now that we have kids. We can't let them grow up and argue with people and then say well that's what my parents did." I say. He walks closer to me. He hugs me. "I'm sorry Amber-" he says but then stop once he said a different name. I let go of him. "Amber? Who the fuck is Amber?" I say getting mad. He just stands there thinking. I shake my head. "It doesn't matter. I want you to just leave. I will think today and you can come back tomorrow and we can talk about it. " I say. He quietly leaves since the babies are sleeping i take the garbage can and take it outside. I remove the garbage from the bag. I put a piece of paper and put it on fire. I watch it burn. I just watch it burn. I go inside and take a bucket full of water and pour it in the can so the fire goes out. I walk back in the house leaving the can outside. I get apple juice since I'm still 19 and I can't drink yet. I drink the apple juice and start thinking. Do I know a Amber? No I don't. Well there was a Amber Joseph but she's one. I stop drinking and just sit in my babies room. I look at Alex. I start talking to her. "When you get a boyfriend make sure he is faithful and make sure that if you guys argue it is for silly reason. You can't change anyone" I then walk to Adam. "Make sure you treat your girlfriend right because we are sometimes hard to get back. Also remember that some girls ain't loyal." I say to him. I turn the baby monitor on. I turn off the light. I go in my room and cry myself to sleep.