27th Of October
So today was kinda crappy.
I go to dancing lessons and today we had to go to this 'dancing in the park' thing. It was all good until we had to go on the stage. There was about 15 people at one moment then a split second later at least 40 people were there. Several songs later, I notice my best friend and another one of my friends. I was already scared about this beforehand but this made it a lot worse. I shook my head at my best friend and she understood. She knew that I have very bad anxiety at the moment so she whispered to my friend and left. After that song was over, I told my dancing instructor that I felt sick so she told me to go to my mum, who was with my grandparents in the crowd. Even my mum knew that I was having a panic attack because she says she used to have them all the time when was my age. Here is some of the symptoms I had: I felt as if I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was going to die, I had a sore stomach all day, I started shaking and scratching myself (which is a thing I do whenever I get nervous) and my heart was racing. As soon as I got to my family, who were outside of the tent thing we were in, I started to cry my eyes out. My friends must of went back home because I didn't see them. We went back to the car and my mum turned on the radio which had Trench currently in it because she knows that TØP calms me down a bit.
Anyway how was your day?
CuteCandy10
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