Lucky or Unlucky

Not what I expected

We walked to the door to be greeted by Nick's mother Gina who hugged and kissed both the boys then hugged me then kissed me on the cheek. 'You guys coming in?' asked Gina smiling sweetly.

'No Ma, we've got guests' said Nick smiling back at her.

'Maybe tomorrow but the ice cream is going to melt' I told her smiling back at her.

'Okay, we'll do dinner tomorrow' told Gina leaving no place to argue.

'Okay, Ma' said Nick.

'You behave okay, I'm going to miss you, I love you' I told Nate as I kneeled in front of him hugging him and kissing him on his forehead affectionately.

'I love you too, momma' said Nate putting his arms around my neck kissing me on the cheek giving him one last squeeze before letting him go and stepping back.

Nick gave Nate's things to his mother before kissing and hugging Nate. 'Behave for grandma, I love you, and take care' said Nick.

'I love you too, dad' said Nate before running inside the house.

'I remember when I saw him for the first time, he was so tiny. Are there anymore grandkids on the way for me to look forward too?' asked Gina with a warm smile on her face looking at the both of us.

'No, Ma not yet' said Nick scratching the back of his neck and looking at the ground.

'Well you're not home enough, I think it's time Nate gets a little brother or sister so he doesn't get lonely' said Gina.

'We're not trying but if it happens it happens, but I was planning on going back to work once Nate started kindergarten' I told her.

I regretted it as soon as I said it. The look on Nick's face said I probably would.

'Well I'm looking forward to it because it isn't a no. If Nate has forgotten anything I'll call and I want, you to come drop it off or at least come with Taylor' said Gina.

'I will' said Nick stiffly.

We said our goodbyes then left sitting in the car and Nick pulled out of the driveway.

'Nick look I...' I stuttered trying to explain to him.

'Shut up! Just shut up! We'll talk about this when we get home!' snapped Nick looking furious.

The rest of the drive home was in silent. I kept glancing at Nick who has his jaw clenched and fingers wrapped around the steering wheel so tightly his fingers had turned white. I felt the ball of dread on my stomach grow making me sick. I didn't want to even think what was going to happen when we got home.

Once we arrived home Nick helped me to put the groceries away silently. I looked over at Nick to try to get a feel of how his anger was. It surprised me to see him so calm. The calm before the storm, before hurricane Nicholas.

I began making the dinner and that's what happened I did for the next few hours. Beef lasagne, vegetable lasagne, salmon cakes, sweet and sour chicken, fish pie, potato soup, New York cheesecake, and apple pie.

It was quiet without Nate being around the house and Nick had been working out in the basement before going to shower about fifteen minutes ago. Nick hadn't said anything about what I had said earlier or blown up at me like he normally would. I didn't know what was going on with him or what he was going to do. I would have thought I would have been covered in bruises or at least ribs that hurt.

I made my way up to our bedroom quietly not knowing what mood Nick would be in. Nick was sitting on the bed when I walked in to the room.

'We should have another child' said Nick looking up at me when he heard me.

'What?' I asked him looking confused. There were a lot of different situations run through my mind as to what would happen once I was alone with Nick. This wasn't one of them, that was for sure.

'We should try of another baby. Nate is old enough and we've always wanted lots of children' said Nick.

'Nick, you're never home! I basically bought Nate up by myself! Now you want another child! Like I told your mum if it happens it happens. I want to go back to work when Nate goes to kindergarten. Without him at home I'm going to go stir crazy' I snapped at Nate. I knew I was pushing my luck but I wanted to get what I wanted to say out there.

'If we have another kid, you won't go stir crazy and Nate will be happy to be a big brother' said Nick grinning. He seemed to ignore everything else I was saying.

'Are you even listening? I don't want to have another child yet!' I screamed at Nick. Why wasn't he listening to me? How could I bring another child in to the world when Nick wasn't at home most of the time? Or when he would snap at the drop of a hat?

'I want us to have another child. And I want us to start trying today' said Nick smiling at me. But there was something about that smile that made the hair on the back of my neck stand up.