Secretly Dating The Griers

I Can't Live Like This

Nash's P.O.V

How could he be dead? He can't be! But then I remember them putting him into the morgue. My stomach twists and my head spins. I couldn't breathe then all of a sudden everything just let loose. Tears streamed my face and I was shaking and breathing heavily. I try stand up but I just fall back down. Cam please come back too me. I need you right now! I cry uncontrollably. I felt like I was gonna puke. "We have to go man." Carter says crying. They help me up and we walk to the car. We drive to the house where all the guys were. We walk in and they all hop up. They look at me "No." Matt says shaking his head. "No no no." He just says over and over he sits down and crys. Shawn was sitting there covering his face. Everyone was crying and Taylor hits the lamp and it shatters on the floor. He was crying and yelling. The boys walk up to me and hug me. Lala looks at me then hugs me really tight. Ive missed her hugs... I hug her back. "W-we need to get going." Hayes says stuttering and crying. We walk out and get to the airport. We board the plane and get home. What am I gonna tell Skylyn? She loves Cam. I just runs upstairs into the bathroom. I grab the razor and put it up to my wrist...But then I stop and think. Cam would never want me too do this. He has took care of me so much.... I put it down and walk out. Later that night Lala and Gilinsky left. I knew they were still seeing each other. "I'm gonna go to bed." I tell Ecla and Hayes who were cuddling on the couch. "Alright night Nash." Hayes says. I walk upstairs and go in the room. I sit there thinking I can't live this life anymore....I just can't. I stand up and get a rope and chair. I stand on the chair an put the rope around my neck and sit there.

Lala's P.O.V

Gilinsky and I are cuddling and talking. He kisses me and it didn't feel right. I sit up "Is everything okay?" he asks. "No this doesn't feel right." He sighs. "I know I realized that." "I put Nash through so much I need to be there for him." "You can go." He says. "Are you sure?" "Yeah." He walks me to my car and I get in then we talk for a bit more.

Nash's P.O.V

I was ready to just drop. Shes with Gilinsky if I leave this world she will have Gilinsky... Then I have flashbacks of me and Lala. The time we first met, When Cam caught us cuddling...The first kiss, When I sang to her, The first I love you.... Tears fall to the floor. "I love you Lala." I whisper then. The chair falls.

Lalas P.O.V

I finally head home and I walk into the house. "Where's Nash?" I ask. "He's in bed." Hayes says. I walk up stairs and open the door. "NASH!" I see him hanging. I run up to him and try to get him down Hayes runs up then freezes. "Help!" I shout crying my eyes out. He runs up and we get Nash down. I take off the rope and hold him in my arms. "Nash please be okay. Please!" Im shaking and Ecla walks in. "Oh my god Nash!" She runs up and she's crying. Hayes was sitting on the bed crying. There parents were gone for 2 days. What will we tell them? I just sit there holding him crying. "I love you Nash." I say. We rush him to a hospital but they couldn't do anything...It was too late. I fall to the floor crying. "Nash please! I love you please don't leave me!" I couldn't breathe. Gilinsky comes to the hospital. He freaks out. We tell the boys over the phone and then you hear Matt crying the most saying "No this can't be true I need them!" We head home and I go into the room and lay on the bed sobbing. I look over and find a note. It says on the front "To my forever and always...Lala" I cry and open it. "Im so sorry it had to be this way. I didn't mean to hurt any of you guys I just couldn't live in this world anymore. Lala you are the most important person in My life and I love you so much. You are my life. Tell Hayes to not give up that I will always be watching over him no matter what. Im with Cam now. Lala just don't forget our memories okay? I love you so much....Goodbye Love." I bawl my eyes out and lay on the bed holding it up to my chest. "I love you too Nash."

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This chapter killed me in bawling my eyes out right now! there will be one more chapter an sorry for making you cry! I can't handle this.