How am I supposed to put this into words
When what I feel is unexplainable?
What I feel is
Driving home at 3am
Finding that one song on the radio
That will make me cry
What I feel is
Listening to memories exchanged
Finding I don't quiet know
Where I fit in
What I feel is
Meeting new people who are just friends
Nothing more and I don't know
If I'm ok with that anymore
What I feel is
Uncertainty, inadequacy, instability
There I put it into words
Does it make it any better? I don't think so
Somehow it just makes me feel it
All the more
Desperation, frustration, insecurity
Hopelessness, loneliness, hostility
Anger, depression, resentment
What I feel is
I know this life isn't fair but I had faith
Faith in something bigger, something more
So where's the bottom line?
Where's the fruit of my labor?
Where's my 8am sunshine
My kiss at midnight
Where's the hurricane I've been searching for?
There's only dry winds and humidity
Sticking to my body like a second skin
What I feel is
My feet are moving forward
The scenery is changing and yet
It's like I'm going back
What I feel is
Will I remain this way forever,
Nameless and alone
Trying, trying, trying but
I'm not that lucky
I'm not that clever
Trying, trying, trying but
What I feel is
I can put my whole heart into this
Trying, trying, trying but
It will still crush my soul.
