This is during the flight
^I shouldn't have gone to AnimatorsFest, James won't want me there. He probably hates me so much right now. What if James told everyone to avoid me, that I am a horrible person. What if everyone in the community hates me now? I should try to get some rest since there's only an hour of the flight left. I don't feel tired what so ever though. Well, I should at least try to relax, remember deep breaths. Great, this isn't working and now I just look retarded. All I am doing is tensing up.^
*Jazza knows Maaz is worried but he doesn't know why.*
Conversation "Are you, okay mate?" - Jazza
"I'm fine Jazza. I just feel nervous about AnimatorsFest, you don't need to be worried about me though." - Maaz
"Dude, you can tell me anything, don't be afraid." - Jazza
"Well its just..." - Maaz
^Can I tell him? What if he doesn't believe me? This is super awkward!^
"Nothing, it's just nothing" - Maaz
^Can he tell I feel super awkward right now?^
"I know when people are nervous in fact everyone gets nervous but this is different." - Jazza
*Maaz tries to avoid eye contact*
^I am making this extremely awkward almost like it is toxic.^
"Maaz, it's okay. You can tell me what is going on" - Jazza
"Don't judge me but I think James hates me now" - Maaz
*awkward silence*
^Oh dear, I can feel the judgement a mile away. Does he even believe me?^
"But why would James hate you?" - Jazza
"It's a really long story and..." - Maaz
^I really don't want to tell him. It would be like experiencing the situation again. But what do I say? What should I do?^
*Jazza realises that Maaz is uncomfortable with finishing his sentence.*
"It's okay Maaz but you don't need to spill everything to me. I am 100 per cent sure that if you just talk to James that everything will be sorted out. I know what James is like, he is a kind and genuine person. And I know you are a cool, funny person that anyone can talk to. So I can tell what good friends you are with him. So there is nothing to be afraid of, you just have to go up to him and be yourself" - Jazza
Later that day
I have finally finished packing and settled into my new apartment. I can finally relax and calm myself down. I can relax now but then why am I tensing up? Why am I still thinking about James, is this why I keep tensing up? Why can't I stop thinking and worrying about James? Look at what you're doing your beating yourself up over nothing. Just remember what Jazza said, "he is a kind and genuine person.". Why can't I think about anything else? Get out of my head James, please.
A/N: I would love to finally be able to say that TheAMaazing has been on YouTube for 2 whole years! Today is when he uploaded his first YouTube video and I am proud of how far he has come.
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