He didn't know how he came to this point, maybe it was the comments on 'We Go Up's music video or the comments on their Instagram posts. Donghyuck stood in front of the mirror looking at himself, well, checking his body out. He looked at his stomach, his tights and arms. He used to never really worry about his size before, sneaking in snacks when on a diet and always up for ice cream. Now, whilst eying himself, he could see some fat on his tummy and his slightly sloppy arms. Thighs thicker that most of the other members. He shook his head, turned away from the mirror and said to himself, "I don't care, I'm not fat".
Later that week, he came to conclusion that he did care. Yesterday, NCT DREAM finished their last promotions for 'We Go Up'. To celebrate, SM organized a dinner for the Dreamies and their staff. Donghyuck had just taken his first bite when Jisung, the youngest, joked about how round Donghyuck's cheeks had become during these past few weeks of promotion. Everyone laughed, but Donghyuck just looked Jisung in the eyes, a bit shocked. The laughing quieted down, and everyone continued eating and having small chats, though Donghyuck couldn't quite enjoy the meal like everyone else seemed to do and didn't really feel like talking as well.
They were halfway through the course when Donghyuck excused himself to the bathroom. He looked into the mirror above the sink. He checked out his cheeks and tucked onto them with his hand. They turned red and then back to his neutral skin color. Had he really been gaining wait since their comeback? He had dieted a lot before 'We Go Up' with the other members. During promotions he forgot about their strict eating rules and stuffed himself full of cookies if they had the time to eat something, though he also had days that lunch would get forgotten because of their busy schedule.
He stared just a bit more before returning to their table, he sat back down again between Jeno and Mark. "You alright?" Mark asked, and Donghyuck just nodded. He didn't want to tell anyone that Jisung's remark made him a bit uncomfortable. The food didn't look as delicious as before, and he wasn't as hungry anymore. But not to waste the food, he put just a few more noodles in his mouth.
Dinner was finished and the Dreamies had to return to their dorms. They were all settled in the car. Donghyuck was getting squished against the window by mark, who was regularly getting pushed by a playful Jaemin. He really wasn't in the mood and carefully placed his earphones, sending Jaemin a death glare, so he would get a bit more space; he was getting nauseous from all the squishing. The music flows into his ears, he was listening to some ballads from a random playlist on Spotify, it eased him, and he soon fell asleep.
Once he opened his eyes, he was shaken awake by Mark. All the other members were already gone, because Mark and Donghyuck stayed at the NCT 127 dorm, and not the Dream one. "We are here." Mark explained. Donghyuck stretched a bit before exiting the car, his muscles all stiff from sleeping. He wasn't actually awake yet, when he stumbled out of the car almost falling. Luckily Mark was there to catch him. "Easy there." He laughed. "Yea, yea." Haechan said, laughing a bit as well.
When they got back to the dorm, it was about 8pm-ish. Most of the hyungs were stationed in their rooms, but Taeyong and Jaehyun were still in the kitchen, washing the last few plates and bowls; they were the ones that lost paper-rock-scissor. "Hi, how was dinner? What kind of delicious things did you all eat?" Taeyong smiled. "We ate so much! There was seafood and lots of meat." Mark exclaimed. "Good, good. You guys deserved it." Jaehyun gave them a wink. Both maknaes laughed. "Now, both of you, go take a shower, you smell like barbecue." Taeyong ordered with, again, a smile visible on his lips. "Yes hyung." Mark said.
Mark took Donghyuck's arm and pulled him to the downstairs bathroom, "I'm taking the one upstairs." He then ran away. He always took dips on the one upstairs, because it was a lot bigger than the one downstairs. Before Donghyuck could say anything in protest, Mark was already gone. Sigh. Donghyuck locked the door behind him, not that he wasn't comfortable around his other members, but he just really wanted to be alone for a bit, without a hyung running into the bathroom to use the toilet; which happened quite a lot (XD).
He undressed himself and, yet again, looked into the mirror. He looked at himself, right into the eyes. He just looked so dull, and just as Jisung had said, his cheeks did look chubby. He probably had the chubbiest cheeks out of al the members. He took a few steps back, so he could see his stomach, he didn't have any abs and he also wasn't skinny. He could even hold the 'fat' in between his hands. Before he could start analyzing his whole body, he shook his head and turned on the shower.
There wasn't a lot of warm water left, so the water was quite on the cool side; It made him shiver. He quickly washed his hair and body, and was finished in under 3 minutes. When he got out of the shower, he just felt really sad. He didn't really know why he was so sad, he was hurt by the comment from Jisung, but he was never this self-aware. He just couldn't shake the sad feeling off.
He totally forgot to bring fresh clothes, or even better, his pajamas; that was truly Mark's fault. He still shivered and felt even more self-aware because he had to walk in just a towel to his room. Luckily, the towel was big, so it wrapped around most of his body. One good thing about being short.
He shuffled out of the bathroom, hoping no one was in the living room. He didn't see anyone and, almost, ran up the stairs to his room. He opened the door to see Jaehyun inside, he was laying on his bed playing some random game on his phone. He didn't seem to notice Donghyuck entering, too occupied by the game, he also had earphones in, so that explains a lot.
He took some fresh pajamas from their shared closet and threw them on his bed. He contemplated about just undressing here or going back to the shower. He didn't mind if Jaehyun saw him, he never did, but he was just so self-aware. In the end, he decided to just get in his pajamas here, Jaehyun was distracted anyways. Once he had them on, he hung up his towel and went to lay on his bed. He was so exhausted from this day, he just wanted to go to sleep. He whispered a "good night" to Jaehyun and wrapped himself in his covers. He closed his eyes, hoping sleep would take over soon. It did, but not for a very long time.
When he opened his eyes again, it was still dark out and when Donghyuck grabbed his phone off the bedside table to check the time, it read 3:00AM. It was midnight. He kept on turning for about half an hour, until he concluded that sleep wouldn't come again, and left his bed behind to grab a glass of water from the kitchen. He made sure to tiptoe, to not awaken Jaehyun, and closed the door very slow, so it wouldn't make a sound.
Donghyuck took one of the water bottles from the fridge and pored himself a glass, the cold liquid felt nice against his throat. The silence of the dorm felt weird, he was never awake at this hour, unless they practiced till late, but he was never up alone at this time. The sad feeling he felt before going to sleep returned, and oh, how he would die for a hug right now. But no way, that he would wake up one of his hyungs at this hour, they deserved getting a quality sleep. He would probably only annoy them.
Donghyuck stood there for about a few minutes when he suddenly felt a hand on his shoulder, he let out a silent shriek and jumped. The glass that was sitting in his hand went flying, landing in a million pieces on the ground. Why was he such a scaredy cat? He took a step back and looked around to look right into Jaehyun's eyes. Did he wake him up? "Wow, I didn't mean to scare you that much." Jaehyun said. "Eh I'm sorry, d-did I wake you up" Donghyuck could only say.
The glass should have made a lot of noise, because before Jaehyun could reply, they both could now see Johnny and Taeyong in the background as well; they were always light sleepers. "What is going on?" Taeyong asked, concern clearly noticeable in his voice. Jaehyun took it on him, "I accidently scared our maknae and so he dropped his glass, I'm sorry." He said, "Btw, are you alright?" He turned back to Donghyuck who still had a very shocked expression on him, as far as you could see in the dark.
Taeyong turned on the light, to see the damage. Jaehyun, Taeyong and Johnny all showed pretty worried glances to their maknae's feet, which made Donghyuck look down as well. He had practically stepped in the glass and could only feel the pain now; his eyes watered a bit, but tears didn't fall. Johnny was the first to make a move, literally pulling Donghyuck up to get him out of the glass, but the damage had been done.
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A/N
I couldn't stop myself from posting the first chapter, I know I should probably update my other story but hey I love NCT and Haechannie.
Ok I feel bad, because I'm going to hurt Hyuckie, please don't hate me ;-;
Thank you for reading, comments make my day ^^
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