Seoul to Soul

Chapter 3: A Spark of Happiness

September 4th, Wednesday, 2:05 P.M.

Jay's POV:

The day went by pretty fast with Jisung accompanying me. Every moment I spent with him could pretty much be summed up with even more awkward moments where I was still trying to wrap my head around the fact that this amazing, out of this world person, is settling for someone like me..
Sigh, it's almost as if we were in a relationship but.. that would never happen. First, Jisung, is most likely straight. Second, if he was gay, it'd be for Chenle or some other NCT member which is the more logical answer than someone like me, someone he just met.

With that said, it was hard to try and do normal things when really, my normal was completely different from his.

"What do you do for fun?" The older boy asks, eyes lit with curiosity, like a child. It was pure and it warmed my heart how earnest he was.

"Well, I.." I struggled to form a sufficient answer. What if he thought I was boring?

"Uh I Well, I dance and I also play soccer." Is what fell sloppily out of my mouth in a rush.

Ironically enough, it happened to be two things he did as well, two things he was really good at.

'Fuck me man.. I'm so stupid..'

His brows furrowed in interest? I didn't think I could see such an expression gestured towards me.

"You?" He asked, almost accusingly.

I felt myself shrink under his harsh gaze.

"Y-Yeah.."

For a moment I began to think he would leave me standing at the bus stop right then at there.
Instead, to my surprise, he held me by the arms, his lips curling so handsomely upwards as he hopped in excitement.

I jumped with him.

"Me too! That's so cool! C'mon! We have to go or we're gonna be late!"

Jisung took my hand into his own for maybe the 5th time today, every time making me weak in my knees. He was too dangerous to be around, my heart physically couldn't take it.

'Wait, late? To what?'

"Uh Park, what exactly are we gonna be late for?"

The boy quickly shifted from excitement to confusion, coming to a halt.

"Tryouts are literally this week! C'mon, keep up. Aren't you the one who's suppose to be teaching me all this stuff?"

I practically choked. This hole I dug myself into was far deeper than I could've ever imagined.

I pulled my hand away, taking a few steps back as I let my gaze fall to the floor. I stared at my feet, cowardly turned inwards as a sign of my shame and embarrassment.

"What's wrong?" He asks, his feet joining mine.

I look up to see him standing a bit too close for my comfort, and those around us as well it seems.

"Get a room!" Someone shouts as they walk past, laughing with their friends about that joke that's way past it's expiration date.

I sighed, running a hand through my hair and putting some space to breath between us.

"I haven't practiced.. like at all.. I'm actually really really shy.. I'm not like you. You're good. Too good if you ask me."

He frowned at that.
What did he mean too good, He probably wondered.

"So you're trying to tell me that just because you're shy, you're gonna not try out?" He questioned

I groan my response, "Yes that's exactly what I'm telling you. I can't just pull out confidence from my closet and wear it like a sweater whenever I want."

Though it would've been a nice life skill to have.

He sighed, clearly not satisfied with what I had to say.
"Jay, I may not know much about you, but I never pegged you for a coward. You gotta at least try!"

He was right... but even so
I felt my heart crack a little, so I tried to laugh it off.

"Ha! Very funny man."

I gave him what was suppose to be a playful shove but I actually ended up pushing him off his feet.

When he fell onto his backside, I panicked and rushed to his aid.

"Oh shit! Jis-Park! I'm so so so sorry! I didn't mean to!"

He sighed, "help me up."

I took his hand, tugging him back onto his feet.

I watched as he continued to dust himself off and just like a scene in a movie, I could literally imagine the light bulb pop above his head. A mischievous smile crawling onto his face.

That's when I tried to take my leave before I can dig any more holes for myself.

"Okay well, that's enough craziness for me today. I'll see you tomorrow yeah? Okay bye!" I tried to run onto my bus but he stopped, grabbing me by the wrist and twirling me around to face him.

"Not so fast! How am I suppose to talk to you?"

"Oh.. right.. that's a thing.."

He scoffs, apparently I said something funny to him.

"Can I get your number?"

Let me just say that even though he couldn't see it, I was dying on the inside. My heart exploded, busting my ribcage open and my love is shooting out.

I managed to keep my composure, playing it off well.

"Wow? Asking for my number already? You're crazy."

"Crazy for you." He cooed.

"Smooth but alright, enough you big flirt. Give me your phone."

He pulled it out and slid it into my hand.

I made sure I angled it to where he couldn't see what I was typing.

When it came to the contact name, I didn't know what to put. Frankly, if you were to ask me, I had half a mind to put "My Baby" or some lovesick pet name. Sadly enough, that would never come true. So I deleted it and gave it back empty.

"There. You can put my contact as whatever, it's fine with me."

"Thank you!" He chirped like the cute baby chick he is.

I just nod, "Can I go now?" I ask right as the bus engine roared to life, scaring me and Jisung half to death.

We share a quick laugh over it.

"Yeah okay, I guess I'll let you go. Thanks again Jay. You're a good person."

Those were my favorite kind of compliments.. I didn't care if my hair wasn't kept or if I didn't have all the highest fashion clothing.
If I could make someone's day genuinely better, all my struggle is worth it all.

"Yeah, it's an honor."

We hug briefly and part ways. I sat down on the first seat, closest to the window. When the bus began to roll away, I watched him wave goodbye. Knowing well that I would never leave him hanging, I smiled, returning his affection.

Today was a good day. Maybe sophomore year won't be so bad after all.

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A/N

Hi guys! Oof lol I know that not many people read this and frankly I bet no one is waiting for updates.
I've actually been on a social media break. Lots going on in life which I'm certain you guys aren't too interested in hearing about. But let's just say things have been excruciatingly hard and I needed time to recover and find myself again. But yay! I'm back and with a new chapter! I'm starting to get into the full swing of things and how I want these chapters to be written. Hopefully it only gets better from here. But anyways, if you stuck around, thank you so much! The support and time and love is so so appreciated.
Have a great day, afternoon and evening!
With love

- Jay