Heartbreak (lushlaws)

Heartbreak (lushlaws) **One-Shot**

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I stood in the shower crying. It has been 6 days since his funeral. Since Nick's funeral.
When I saw him in that coffin going low into the ground, my heart literally shattered into a million pieces.
That day kept on playing in my mind as I stood in the shower looking at where he use to stand, smiling innocently showing his dimples.

I slid down the tiled wall onto the floor of our shower letting the water hit my toned skin as tears streaked my face.
I couldn't help crying, he meant the world to me, how am I suppose to move on if the only thing that I loved just died.
The water started to get colder so I stood up and turned the knob of the shower so the water stopped pouring.

I stepped out of the shower and wrapped the towel around my waist, this was the towel that we used when we showered together for the first time.
I went over to his closet and pulled out one of his shirts and track suit bottoms.
I slipped on his shirt and pulled on my Mickey and Minnie boxers then slipped on his track suit bottoms.

I collapsed onto our bed cradling his pillow. It still smelt like his shampoo.
I started to sob into pillow again, letting the tears hit the fabric of his pillow.

Why did the bus driver have to be drunk that night? It should've been me, he was only a teenager I'm 26 for crying out loud! He was still a kid!

"Matthew?" Said a voice.
I turned to see Steve and Ellie stood in the doorway.
The gang was staying with me until they are sure that I won't try killing myself.
But now I think about it I don't think they are completely wrong.
Steve nodded to Ellie and she walked into the dining area.
Steve walked in holding a dark blue tray.
"Matt...Matthew you have got to eat something, we want you to eat......he would want you to eat." He begged whilst trying to passes me a vegan bread bowl.
I shook my head.
He placed the food on the tray and put it on the dresser.
I broke down into tears again.
He rushed to my side and comforted me whilst releasing tears of his own.
"W-we h-have got to be strong for him, for Nick." He stuttered.
I nodded.
"Please, say something!"
I stared at him.
"Okay good night."
I nodded and laid down clutching the pillow close to me scared that it would disappear just like Nick did.
I picked up my phone and looked at the lock screen, it was a photo of me proposing to Nick.
I swiped my thumb across the screen and typed in my pass code 8-8-13.
When my home screen loaded up I tapped the 'phone' icon and scrolled down to his name.
I tapped it and it started to dial his number.
"Sorry I can't speak to you now, I'm either dying of boredom or I am hanging out with my beautiful, fantastic boyfriend. Sorry, call y'all later"
I smiled, I love hearing his voice. This is the only way I can hear his voice now.
I yawned my eyes started to droop. No, I can't sleep, I can't sleep without him, with my Nickalaws.

"Good night, I love you forever-ever Nicholas Alexander Laws."

And I swear I heard his voice saying...

"I love you Forever-ever as well Matthew Lush."