Butterflies

Chapter 6

QUEEN POV

so clarence came with me to get my things from the TAP house. i told him i was pregnant and he seemed happy tomorrow we're going to the doctor to confirm it but i'm really scared because i've had so many miscarriages & i don't think that this child is going to make it. i don't wanna tell clarence about my miscarriages but i know i'll have to sooner or later.
AT THE TAP HOUSE

" Clare babe can you help me, Clareeeeee "
" yes baby what's wrong? "
" can you help me please this stuff is heavy "
" i got it, just go wait in the car "
" ok don't forget my hair stuff "
" i gotchu mamas "
SKIP CAR RIDE
" i got it baby just go take a hot shower & lay down i'll order some uber eats after i put your things away."
"ok thanks and i have to tell you something when you come up"
"what is it tell me now"
"it can wait babe"
" ok, let me get this stuff"

QUEEN POV
i'm contemplating on telling Clare about the miscarriages I know i should tell him and it would be selfish if i didn't but i just cant i know it'll break his heart if he finds out but if i don't tell him he'll find out a bad way and i don't want that, i love Clare with all my heart but i don't wanna let him down

"you ok mamas" clarence asked while sitting down next to queen
"yeah i'm fine"
"what you have to tell me"
Queen looked into his eyes and started to tear up
"Clarence i'm sorry"
"what are you talking about Queen"
"Clare i cant i'm sorry i'm so sorry i didn't want to put you in this predicament at all but it happened and i'm sorry"
"Queen i'm not understanding, what are you talking about? are you leaving me or something? Queen we JUST got back together what did i do? i'm sorry for whatever i did and it'll never happen again i promise baby don't leave me please you know i can't live without you"
at this point Clarence is starting to tear up while Queen is still silently crying
"babygirl don't cry tell me what I did wrong I wanna fix it and talk it out like adults instead of leaving, I wanna do right by you and my unborn child"
"Clare that's the thing " Queen said while sniffling
"i've had so many miscarriages i don't think i'm able to carry this baby"
Clarence looked at her in disbelief he forgot that she had miscarriages with her previous kids, he was so excited he forgot about all her medical issues.
"that's ok baby we can make a doctors appointment and see what they say"
"Clare i already know what they're going to say, i'm tired of going through this I just want a child that i can actually hug and kiss on, change diapers when they boo boo"
"I know mamas, me too but we gotta stay strong for baby Renzo, we're going to the doctor Monday to check on him and we'll go from there, don't worry about anything i got you i don't want you to stress yourself out"
"baby Renzo? Clare you got a name for the baby already" Queen chuckled at the last part
"tomorrow i'm going out with a friend but i need your permission"
"who is this 'friend' " he said with all seriousness
"umm .. Zander" she answered quickly "Zander?" Clarence said while jerking his head back
"mhmm" she said while shaking her head
"no mamas i don't want you around him, he's to sneaky for me"
"clareeeee pleaseee he's my only friend" queen reasoned while tugging on him
"no mamas and that's the final answer !" he answered back sternly while raising his voice a little
Queen didn't say anything she just jumped a little and got up and walked out the room while slamming the door
After letting Queen cool down Clarence went to check on her and she wasn't there.
CLARENCE POV
Queen got heated about me saying no to her going out with Zander, I know he wants her that's why he wants to be around her so much but she doesn't realize it she think that he's just being a good friend.
After letting her cool down I went to talk to her but she wasn't there. I called her phone but she didn't answer so I went down to the trap. I put a tracker on her phone because she has a tendency to run away from her problems and ignore everyone.
I went back up stairs to shower & change my clothes after I did that I sprayed some cologne on, brushed my hair & walked out the door. I stopped at the light thinking about where she could be I looked over and seen a familiar face with a dude in the car they looked back at me and told the person to roll their window up. I got out my car & ran to the other car when I got to the car Queen was looking terrified. I snatched her up and threw her in my car then drove off. She kept giving me glances while I was driving but I didn't say anything to her or glance back at her. I was pissed right now and the last thing I wanted to do is talk to her, I was speeding and my blood was boiling.

QUEEN POV
Me and Zander stopped at the light when i seen a familiar car, I thought about it then they turned their head towards me I told Zander to roll up the window because it was Clarence, he did as I told him but Clarence got out the car and came to get me I thought he was gonna do something to Zander but to my surprise he didn't he just hopped in the car I could tell he was pissed so I didn't bother him, I kept giving him glances but he didn't do it back.
" Clarence "
he didn't say anything back or look at me so I gave up. I stared out the window thinking about what I done, I felt a tear drop but i quickly wiped it away & sniffled. I shouldn't be the one crying Clarence should, I up and left after he told me no.
AT THE HOUSE
"I wanna take you somewhere,get dressed"
Clarence told me to get dressed he wanted to take me somewhere i'm kinda nervous
"Hurry up damn"
"ok baby i'm coming"
He didn't say anything he just looked at me with a stale face and walked out
"Babe"
"Babe, CLARENCE"
"what yo"
"where did you put my shoes"
"in my closet and hurry the fuck up"
"ok stop being so rude"
"just hurry up damn, i'll be in the car"
I didn't say anything I just finished what I was doing & went to the car
About 30 minutes into driving we pulled up to a abandoned building
"baby what is this, where are we"
"get out you'll see"
"i'm scared"
"Queen you know i wouldn't do anything to you come on now you carrying my child"
"that doesn't mean anything Clare"
"just get out the car queen dammit, i'm not gonna kill you !"
"ok sorry"
After that i got out the car and followed behind him
we got to the door and as soon as he opened it the smell of ass & drugs hit my nostrils i immediately threw up from the smell
clarence came & helped me clean up he looked like he had a attitude but i shook it off because he would've told me of something was wrong.