The Never-Ending Nightmare: sentences, words, letters

Chapter 1

Hello there! (: This is a new series I will be writing, each book will be pretty short and it's kind of based on my life. Hope you enjoy.

Reminder: just like all my other stories, the font and the way the story is presented is not the best. I write on my phone so I can't make those type of changes. Just please try and ignore it.

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"Amellia, why are your arms and cheeks so red?"

"Why do you like him, Amellia? He called you fat."

"Amellia, how are you so tall?"

"You wear too much makeup, Amellia."

"Amellia, your overweight."

Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up.

"Amellia? That bitch is ugly."

SHUT UP!

Memories.

My head kept replaying the memories of what everyone has said to me.

why am i me? i dont want to be me.

I wish I had tan skin.

I wish I was skinnier.

I wish I was short.

I wish I looked my age.

I wish I had real friends.

I'm 12 years old going on 15. I have two different skin conditions called rosacea and keratosis pilaris. I have big green eyes and long brown hair. I'm super tall and i'm at an average weight but I want to be skinny not 'normal'. My friends are always saying mean things to me.

I feel alone.

So many insecurities.

Everyone judges me because I wear some makeup and do my hair everyday. They think i'm stuck up; from what ive heard.

"Amellia think shes so pretty, well she's not."

I know what your thinking, I don't have it that bad. I know some people have it worse. I do.

But I'm a sensitive person and if I'm told things like this, I can't take it. I break.

I get these comments pretty much everyday and its hard to ignore.

Their voices are always replayed in my head over and over again.

No one likes me....

I'm just a fat-ass giant who should die.

Die. Die. Die.

I wish I could just die.

But im afraid. Afraid i'll go to hell because that's what my dad says will happen. I also dont have enough courage.

"You should just die."