My Best Friend Is My Lover

What hurts the most

Mitch's POV

Okay, when he comes downstairs... just say it. Jerome...I have to say something very important and... I hope this doesn't ruin our friendship... But I love you more than a friend.

I sigh and smile. I can do this. I heard the footsteps coming down the stairs. I turned around.

"Jerome, I have..." I quickly shut my mouth. He was with that girl, Louise the popular girl at our school. Why would she be here?

"What was that, Mitch?" Jerome had the happiest on his face.

"Hi, Mitch." Louise was smiling too as they walked up to me.

"Hi, Louise." I faked a smile and usually Jerome would always notice but he didn't this time.

"Okay, so what I wanted to tell you was that I've been dating Louise for a while and its been going pretty good!" She kissed his cheek after that. Ugh.

"Why didn't you tell me when you first started dating?" I asked trying to keep balance to my weak knees.

"We wanted to make sure that it would work out before we told anyone."

"Ohh.." That was all that could leave my throat. I felt like crying. I've should have known. They were staring into each others eyes. "I'm going to use the bathroom, I'll be right back." I wanted to smile but failed sadly. Why can't that be me?

"Okay, dood. Take these sweats. We'll be in the living room." I walked into the bathroom around the corner and lock it, tears forming as I slide down the door. Why? Is there something about me? All I wanted was to love you. Why can't I. I brought my knees to my face to hide. I had so much to say and now you're gone. We probably weren't made for each other. I can't stay here.

I unlock the door to walk to the living room to see the both of them making out. They didn't even pay attention to me. I swear I could feel my eyes trying to roll to the back of my head just to avoid this. More tears spill as I left the house with his umbrella by the front door with no sound.

(Warning Self- harm)

When I got home I ran to my room. My mom and dad must still be at work. I went to my bathroom to grab my real love, my razor. I haven't use this thing in years. Being with Jerome made me stop. "Hello buddy, It's been too long." I put the cold metal against my skin and made a cut. It stunk for a second but felt so good. The blood oozed a bright red. I continued spelling out Jerome's name. I cleaned up and slowly but surely put some pj's on. I laid in bed, falling asleep the second my head hit the pillow, just wanting to forget those two.

Jerome's POV

I walked Louise to the couch. As we waited she started to kiss me and it got intense. I felt a bit of spark into this. I swear I heard the bathroom door open. I tried to turn but Louise brought me back to her lips.

As she pulled away her phone rang. She read what I believe was a text. "I'm sorry, babe. I have to go, my mom wants me."

"Oh, okay. I'll see you tomorrow." I said as I walked her to the front door. She gave me a peck on my lips. "Bye!"

"Bye-bye!" I closed the door and walked to the bathroom. Mitch isn't here? Where did he go? I went to the front door, walking outside. The only thing there was my car and rain puddles that covered all over my driveway. I went to my room to get my phone.

Jerome: Where did u go, biggums?"

I waited for a text because Mitch usually answers quickly when it's me, but this time he didn't. I hope he's alright and it wasn't Louise that made him leave.

I sighed getting ready for bed.

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Aww! It gets better Mitch. I promise but you always have to go through stuff.. 

I'm bored and I wanted to post the next Chapter.

-EnderGirl