kenzie's pov
right now i'm panicking because i might actually be pregnant but i'm not sure yet. i don't even really know who the father is (if i'm even pregnant) it can't be johnny bc he told me he used protection and he's the only one the i've fucked (except for my ex but that was a really long time ago). so i went to CVS and got a box of pregnancy test and went to my house and tried it. the first one was positive but i heard that the 2nd try is the real one (omfg i don't know how to reword it). i tried it again and patiently waited for 5 minutes and while i was waiting i texted johnny. i checked the pregnancy test and it had 2 lines (two lines means it's positive) and i texted johnny again.
~text convo~
kenz: johnny...
john: what? is it positive?
kenz: ..
john: kenzie answer me. is it positive?
kenz: yes..
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~end of text convo~
after texting him i just cried and cried and cried on our counter and ran up to my room and cried again until i heard the front door open. it was maddie. holy shit i left the pregnancy test on the counter. fuck i'm dumb.
"kenzie can you please come down here" she exclaimed.
"wait" i exclaimed back.
i already knew why she was calling me so i went to my bathroom and cleaned myself up so it doesn't look like i was crying.
"hey, maddie" my voice was shaking
"kenzie please explain" she held up the pregnancy test.
"i-i don't know i g-guess i'm just dumb" my voice was getting really shaky and my heart felt like it wanted to be ripped out of my chest. i cried on her shoulder for a couple seconds and she looked at the couch signaling us to sit there.
"kenzie, this is exactly what i was talking about. u have to be careful" she said and i was crying uncontrollably on her shoulder.
"i'm not mad, i'm just a little disappointed that u actually fell for it" she tried calming me down. i hugged her and we got interrupted by my phone and i saw that i have a notification that johnny texted me.
~text convo~
john: who have u been fucking?
john: i used protection
john: i'm breaking up with u :/
~end of text convo~
when i saw those texts my heart shattered into a million pieces and i felt like the wold hated my guts. maddie also saw those texts and hugged me and i cried on her shoulder again and then ran upstairs to my room. maddie knocked on my door but i told that i need some alone time so she left.
warning: the next part includes self harm
i went to my bathroom and grabbed a random razor that i had and i started cutting my fore arm, near my pulse. after cutting, i looked at myself in the mirror and said "i'm fat as fuck." and then i heard a knocked on my door
"kenzie!" maddie yelled
"what?" i said
maddie looked at my arm and saw cuts and i totally forgot to cover them up, shit. she held my arm cried cuz she "didn't wanna lose me" but in reality i think she does.
"kenzie, please, don't ever do this again " she had a worried look plastered on her face. i pulled my arm back and she hugged me, i hugged back of course.
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hope y'all enjoy this chapter. k thnx bye. ♥️.
