I don't need happiness anymore
'Cause it hurts me down to my core
Many questions swirling in my mind
I hope that sooner I will be fine.
It is not about happiness
It is not about how I laugh
It is all about sadness
Wishing everyday, I'll be tough.
Dear fate, what did I do to you?
Did I disappointed you?
Or I'm just in a hurry?
You know your plans are too blurry.
Always fighting for someone else
But I wish I learn to fight for myself
You know that I'm tired being too nice,
I just want to be heartless and cold as ice.
My problems that I need to deal
All of this shits are so surreal.
I wish I was tough like everyone does
Fighting everyday for yourself is a must.
When you want to shut everyone out,
All of your problems that you want to shout,
Everything is on fire and too much
You're a fire that no one can touch.
When you feel nothing, and you just want to sleep,
Be happy? Oh no darling I rather weep,
Why am I like this? being too kind-hearted
Happiness, Love, and Affection will be always wanted.
I'll stop hoping from now on,
Full of chaos, that I always won
I rather be sad than being happy
Anxiety will always hit me so badly.
