(Suji's pov)
"I'm sorry okay!" I said to jimin
I was at the dorms visting him and the guys, so now me and jimin were in his room arguing because i said something i shouldn't have, i joked about us breaking up, and he felt like i meant it
"But..w..why else would you say that..." he mumbled sadly and my heart broke at that, why am i always so stupid why do i say and do the wrong thing at the wrong time?, i ruined everything, i feel like i cant do anything right, i feel so disgusted with myself, i feel so hopeless with myself at all times
"J..jimin Please..i was just joking...i know i alw-"
"You should go back home its getting late, h..here is your jacket" he said as he gave me my jacket and lighty pushed me out the room, i just stood there as i started to cry, i then slowly walked out to the door
"Hey...w..why are you crying?" Namjoon asked as i just looked down and shook my head
"I..because..i said something stupid..something i- im just stupid i say and do the wrong..t..thing-i don't know i..i have to go" i said as i started to sob
"W..wait whats wrong?" Namjoon said as i practically ran out the dorm
Once i got home i threw my phone to the floor out of anger, the screen slighty cracked, i sighed as i picked it up
I then started to text jimin, the text read
'Jimin, im sorry, im so sorry baby i know what I did was wrong i know it so stupid of me to even joke like that i know it was wrong, and even since i was 5 years old i have always had the stupidity to always say and do the wrong thing at the wrong timing, so i guess i ruined yet another thing, but baby please know that i was only joking, i thought it would never turn into this i was foolish, stupid, dumb, and baby, please know that i love you know that i cherish you, please know that your all i want, your all i need, all i have please dont be sad over somthing as useless, and worthless as me, i know that breaking up is something you dont joke about so freely carlessy but please, i know you dont need me but i need you'
I sighed as i sent it i took a shower and put on my pink hoodie and my bed pajama shorts i sat down on the bed and i grabbed my laptop
But then my phone chimed
I grabbed it and read the message
'Umm suji, this was probably meant for jimin hyung, but this is jungkook, sorry about whatever happend'
Shoot!!, that was meant for jimin!!
Not jungkook
( jimin's pov)
As i came downstairs i heard the guys talking
"Um..just out of curiosity, jin hyung does your sister have a history if self hate?, maybe self harm" i heard namjoon say, i then started to listen
"Ummm...not that i know of why?" Jin replied
"Well because she sai-" jungkook cut him of
"Well i think so because of this text she sent me, it was meant for jimin hyung but she made a mistake and sent it to me" jungkook said
What?
"Guy....when she first came earlier, i held her arm as she almost tripped and..she winced in pain, and i didn't even hold her arm that tight" hoseok said, oh my god is she self harming, she is always wearing long sleeves even when its hot out
"Guys....d..do you think she is self harming?" I said as all heads turned my direction
"...most likely ,yes" namjoon whispered as i gasped and grabbed my coat and ran to her house
Im so sorry baby
(Authors note)
Part 2 will be up tomarow or maybe tonight
Love ya guys💚💙💚💙
