So.... hello. You probably now my nickname by name. Anyway, hello I'm TT. I just write my struggles and thoughts here, hoping they might help someone like me.
I grew up being happy. I grew up not caring about anything. I didn't even know my first cuss until I was in 4th grade! I was pretty pure. I guess that as I grew older I was exposed to more things and they had a bigger impact on me. More bad, more hate, more War, and more friends who told me their troubles. I love being a friend who can give advice. I also don't want to harm anyone.
So when I started struggling, I kept it inside. I would wait for my little sibling to go to sleep so I won't keep them awake with crying. I didn't tell anyone or anything. That's when I created this account around 2 am and started writing ANYTHING.
One of my friends started to pick up on my new hidden personality and somehow we started texting about how I have become... different. I told her about this account. About 10 minutes passed and she texted me this, "I was able to read it. (my real name), it's ok."
That sent tears running. I knew that she knew. I could see the possibilities, all but one. That one possibility that I did not see changed my life. She kept texting, even when all I could say was "yeah"! The text message that sent me into a room so my parents won't ask why I'm crying so hard is this, "I'm here if you ever need anything. Don't suffer in silence."
That message was followed with this, "God made you because he loves you and you are perfect. Even if you don't see yourself that way you are." I am writing a book about me discovering God. I do have to disagree with her about me being perfect. No one is perfect and that's what makes this a beautiful world.
Later she told me if I texted her that I needed to talk at 2 am, she would be willing. I love her for that. We still talk and she still listens. I got to tell her about everything I am having trouble with.
Please take her word and don't suffer in silence. If you find someone suffering in silence, be the person to lift them out of the shadows and into the light.
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