The Killer Inside Jeff The Killer x Reader Book 2 (Old)

Loss Of Control

With Jeff's sadistic face staring me down from across the table I lowered my eyes. If I am Jeff's proxy then that means he can do anything he wants with me and I can't really say no. That thought sent chills down my spine more than I thought it would. I heard Jeff chuckle from his side of the table and I looked down at my lunch. I was starving when I first sat down but now I'm not so sure if I can eat a single bite. I sat there in a daze as the others ate their lunch and then proceeded with their day. Masky and Hoodie headed to the living room to work on a project that Slenderman had assigned to them. EJ left to go study something in his room, Ben left to do whatever that pervert does, Sally spoke with Slender before heading to her room with him to play a game. I couldn't tell where the others had gone at this point. I was so shaken up that I 'blacked out' at least I did mentally. What was it that Jeff had in mind that involved me now that I can't deny his every command. What was he going to do to me? What was he going to make me do? I pondered every possibility without realizing that he had walked up next to me and was next to my face. "Whatcha doin?" He said with a sadistic hiss in his voice. I jolted back to my senses and looked at him still quite concerned. He let out an amused chuckle and proceeded to speak. "So since you haven't killed yet I thought we could go out tonight and let you get some practice in. I have a few places in mind that would be too easy for me but might provide a decent challenge for you." I just softly nodded my with a bit of relief. Jeff noticed this and took it as an advantage to get to me and whispered quietly into my ear. "If you do a good job I may give you a little bit of a reward.~" He purred mockingly. I felt a chilled finger run down my spine and I jumped up out of my seat. I felt my body move without a second thought to strike him across the face. 'Why did I hit him? I don't remember telling myself to do so.' I pondered this thought. He stumbled back a bit and looked at me a bit angrily. I had caught him off guard and now I was going to suffer for it wasn't I? I couldn't tell what was going on in his mind based off of his face other than he was pissed. I felt my body move again without my command. I watched as I grabbed a knife from off of the table and lunged for him. I heard metal clash and sparks fly as my blade collided with the one he had removed from his pocket to defend himself. My body continued to fight while I sat in my mind as if I was watching a move. I had no control over myself anymore. I couldn't stop my self. I couldn't think of anything else than what I had been seeing. 'What am I doing? Why am I doing it? What is going on?' I began to ask myself all these questions just to have it answered by nothing more than silence. I don't even remember how long it had been since I lost control of myself. Had it been a few seconds? A few minutes? I don't know. I can't remember anything anymore. I just can see darkness and silence surrounding me and I know it can't be stopped. Why? I don't know. I don't know of anything anymore. It feels calm, quiet, peaceful. This insanity that I find myself falling into. It feels so blissful, so at peace. Who am I anymore? I don't know and frankly I don't care anymore. Next thing I can feel is a falling feeling as if I was going down into an infinite pit. I felt a sharp pain in my body as if I had hit something before I flung myself up into a sitting position and fell off of my bed. In a panicked frenzy I stood up and backed myself into a corner and looked around lost in confusion. I saw two men looking at me. One with a white hoodie, a pale face with burnt eyelids and a carved smile. The other with a dark blue hoodie, ash gray skin, a sharp toothed smile, and black oozing eye sockets with no eyes. I felt a rush of sensations as I crumbled and fell to the ground before throwing up all over the wooden floorboards beneath me. I felt like I had been hit with the weight of everything that I knew. Memories, emotions, senses, everything. I heard movement ahead of me but I couldn't bring myself to look forwards. I heaved heavily struggling to gain my breath between fits of vomit. I watched as my vision blurred and struggled to remain focused. I forced myself into a right side up position and forced my eyes to focus on what was in front of me. I saw the men staring at me with concern. The one in blue spoke first. "She is unstable she needs to kill soon or else she will die. She's losing control of herself and beginning to suffer the consequences." Kill? Will die? Losing control? Consequences? None of these things made any since to me at the moment. Then it hit me like a pile of bricks. I remembered where I was, who I was, who I had become. I remembered everything and I panicked. EJ approached me and did an examination where he determined that I was in as bad of shape if not worse than it looked. I could feel myself losing consciousness once again. I felt as my arms slipped out from under me and I crashed into EJ's arms and watched as the world went black.