Hey. I'm sorry for not updating anything. I've gotten really depressed and things have been going down ever since it started.
Yes, I'll try to update more if I get the chance.
No, I don't have any specific times/dates I will update.
I will try and update more often, if I get the chance.
So about the depression...I haven't felt this bad in a while. It's gone from once every few months, to everyday...
I have a medicine that will help ease the depression.
This is where it gets personal...and kinda bloody ;-;
I know it might seem out of my character
Well, it's gone from just being sad, to cutting. And from cutting, to suicide...
I tried stabbing myself in the heart but I didn't have the guts to do it. That makes it even worse, knowing that you're to weak to do something so simple. To just stop the pain and hurt. To end it all.
'The cuts I don't need to hide, cuz all the damage is on the inside. I want to end it all, stop the pain. But others wonder, "what's the gain?" They just don't understand how much it hurts, it's better cutting and watching the blood squirt. The people around me are the ones to blame. The reasons I hung my head in shame. You may think I'm perfect, I'm anything but. Just look at me...look at these cuts...is that really lovable? No it's not! I'm nothing but trouble! A worthless piece of trash, waiting for my crash. This is my end of the story, no 'happily ever after'! Cause no one cared to help her. People think it's ok to do this shit. But they don't know words make em slit their wrists. So I'm done know. Thanks for listening. Now I gotta get back to slittin' "
That's my cutting song. Don't worry I've gotten better I'm ok. I'll be writing stories soon ❤️
