Rayvon

part 4

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Fiona POV

After that mind blowing sex I just had, I felt used. The way he basically kicked me out of the room. I feel as if he was using me just for my virginity but I wanted to give it to him. Going into my room Grabbing my phone from my end table Plopping on The bed putting my earbuds in with the music blasting. Laying down letting my mind flow into the music trying not to think about John. God I shouldn't have fucked him but I know it's too late. I can't just say (hey what we did was wrong, so I'ma need my virginity back) only if it was that easy. I laid there with so much pain between my legs and my heart cause I knew what I was getting myself into I just couldn't help wanting him so damn bad. Thank God he brought that pill cause I would have been stuck with a baby at 17 when I read the little box it said there was 99% chance of me not getting pregnant if I take all 3 pills for the next 3 days of him injaculating inside of me. I just hope it works. Falling asleep with so many tears in my eyes. Having a dreamless night I woke up to my mom

"Sweetheart wake up it's time for school" My mom said from the doorway, waking up in a rush running to my bathroom and taking a shower washing up as fast as possible cause I didn't want to be late. Looking in the mirror putting on eyeliner and mascara and some lip cream. leaving my hair down cause I noticed I have a light hickey on my neck, I started Freaking out hoping no one notices.

Going downstairs to my mom and stepdad in the kitchen. No John in site. Good I didn't want to see him anyways. Hiding my neck, grabbing my jacket from the chair taking a bite if the bacon and eggs she had made me.

"Hey mom, dad"  giving them both kiss and left the house in a rush. Speed walking to Kim's house. That's my best friend.

"Hey fee"

"Hey babes" I called her

"So?" She asked in the way of trying to get information but she wasn't getting anything from me not today.

"So?" I asked back looking down at my feet.

"So, how's it been with your step brother there? You haven't texted me" she sounded sad.

"It's been good he hasn't been there, he leaves late comes back when everyone is gone" I said lying to her feeling like crap about it.

"Hmm,ok." She said knowing I was lying. When wind blow my hair away from my face and neck. I Seen her eyes going to my neck and seeing my hickey mark but not saying anything.

"You had fun this weekend. I see" she said pointing at my neck. Damnit I stop too soon. I act as if I didn't hear what she said. Leaving it alone. She's going to be so mad at me for not telling her as soon as it happened.

Walking in silence thanking God that she left it alone. I didn't want to talk about it to anyone yet. I know she'll be the first one I'll  run to the I'm heart broken. Getting to school but not wanting to be there for the first time in my life. I love school and my friends. I didn't feel right. I couldn't get John off my mind. Going through the school day and my classes feeling like a zombie. I kept checking my phone to see if I had a text or even a call from him, nope nothing only from my mom. Which sucked. I wanted to text him but I held myself from doing so. He was on my mind all day. I could still feel his big hands all over my body. His thrust fast and slow, the feel of his lips on mine. Everything about this man is so good but bad at the same time. My best friend kept asking me what's wrong I wanted to tell her but I couldn't bring myself to tell her yet cause I felt stupid for doing it. I know she would kill me cause she always told me not to go for it. I kinda liked him when I first met him. I would be mad to if I was her.