Random Thoughts 💭

Relationships

At the time it was happening,
I believed you.

I really did think what you said was true.

I was willing to wait,
And wait,
And wait.

I wanted to wait, to be the one.

The one that you would accept after I waited.

The one that you finally would ask,
To be the one.

The one when you were ready for a relationship.

Hoping that if I were to wait,
My dreams would come true.

You said you weren't ready,
Not ready to be in a relationship.

Even after you tell yourself,
That you'll be lonely forever.

Couldn't you see I was in front of you.

Everyone else knew,
They even teased about it to us.

How did that not faze you,
Not even the slightest.

My mind keeps rewinding,
You said you weren't ready.

I have this black pit,
A void that won't close.

I tried to fill it back up,
I tried to date.

Of course it was from our friend group, he liked me first.

I wanted to give t a try,
To see what it was liked to be loved by someone else.

To not have to wait,
And wait for a response back.

I still figured you weren't ready,
Until I was told.

Told that you now had a girl,
Someone that you now hold dear.

Someone that was supposed to be me.

Not ready my ass.

I now know that it was an excuse,
Something to set me off course.

It worked,
It really did.

I broke up with that friend,
It wasn't for me.

I couldn't take it,
It wasn't true love.

Hearing stories of her makes me sad,
They cause me to be jealous and envious.

Wishing that could be me,
But it's not.

Now I'm back at square one,
And I'll wait for you.

Again
And
Again
Just for you.