What Hurts The Most. |Larry Styleinson|

Harry's POV.

*flash back*

"Harry, you and Louis can't be um.. be public- I should say with your relationship." Daniel, head of management, stares down at my boyfriend and I 's intertwined fingers.

"What?! what do you mean?! just because were different doesn't mean we should hide!!" Louis shouts.

"Louis, its for the best. Not just your career, but all the lad's careers are going to be screwed over if THIS continues were going to lose a shit load of money!!!!" Daniel yells at my red faced boyfriend.

"W-why? I-i love Louis, I just don't want to hide." I silently sob.

"you can still do things togther but only secretly." he offers a small smile. "Louis we... um we have a fake girlfriend for you her name i-"

"You know what i don't fucking care about some beard i just want harry! that's all ive ever wanted!"

"we know this. but the public does not Louis! you will pretend to date her! its not a big deal!"

"Yes it is! i can't kiss the one I love in public becaise "being gay is wrong"?! its bullshit (ayye see what i did there) " Lou bursts into a mad fit.

"L-lou. its for the best. We'll still be together. forever. okay?" I whisper.

"okay." He kisses my temple.

*end of flashback*

I regret the day we even decided to go with that beard.

it kills me. I can't kiss him. I cat hold him. I am so in love with him. but no one knows. its kept secret behind her. she is a very sweet girl yes but they force her to lie. they force Lou to hidew. they had made me the way I am. quiet. shy. insecure. I hate what I am. and no on notices.

its all because that day.

I hate myself everyday because of those four sentances that left the lips he used to kiss, are causing me so much pain. when will it end?

when can I be with my one and only? Louis.