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Colby brock ↠ Gerascophobic! reader

(Gerascophobia ➼ fear of growing older)

"being scared is part of being alive, accept it and walk through it"

It was a bitter, cimmerian night, rain was pouring from the sky, the raindrops hitting the window, bringing you back to reality, distracting you from your lucid thoughts. I cuddled up next to my boyfriend, holding him in a tight embrace to warm my body as the blankets weren't doing a good job at doing so.

I nuzzed my face into his chest, letting my thoughts eat me alive. The raindrops hitting the window, bringing me out my trace. This carried on as a continuous cycle for what seemed like hours, until Colby broke the silence.

"Are you okay sweetheart?" He asked with a hint of worry in his voice. It was unusual being so silent for me, i was a very exultant person, so i get why he was slightly worried.

"yeah, im fine.." i said my voice trailing off. I was anything but fine, and we both knew that. I was terrified. Nights like these reminded me of growing up, the future in general terrified me. You never know what's going to happen and it's frightening since you realise that the person you're next to will not be there in the future.

"you're not fine, we both know you're not, you can tell me anything that's bothering you" He said in a soft, calming tone, running his fingers through my hair to help me relax.

i let out a shaky sigh as my eyes started to water. My e/c orbs were glistening as tears were threatening to spill out any second.

"im scared colby" i breathed out, my voice shaky as i hugged him closer to my body.

"i'm horrified of the future, im horrified of growing up " i cried out burying my face in his chest, grasping on his shirt tightly.

he kissed my head softly, pulling me even closer to his body, which was merely impossible.

"you're going to be okay baby girl, i promise, nothing will happen to you or us, you're going to be the same old, cheery and beautiful y/n forever, okay?" he said shushing me, trying to stop me from crying.

It saddened me even more that i let my phobia's ruin nights like these, we should be enjoying each other's companies, but instead i'm crying because of growing older. It sucked, it really did, but there was nothing i could do about it.

we knew we couldn't control the future, it was normal for mental breakdowns like these to occur, as the days are passing my i get more anxious everyday about what's going to happen to us when we're growing up.

As an 18 year old, i knew there were still a lot to come in life, i've basically just started living properly, and it's the worst state to be in with my phobia, since i'm just starting to develop reality and getting used to what life really is.

I clutched onto his shirt like my life was depending on it. The room was silent, the only noise that could be heard was the rain hitting the window. We just held each other in complete silence, as each second, minutes, passed, i was getting more and more anxious.

I broke our bond, sitting up in our bed, breathing heavily as i looked up at the ceiling, my vision going slightly blurry. I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist, i grabbed onto his hands, holding them tightly in mine, until they disappeared.

Colby got up from the bed, and exited the room, a few seconds later he came back with a glass of water. He handed it to me as i took a sip of the liquid. It burned as it made it's way down my throat from the lack of water that was in my body. I was dehydrated, but i didn't care, i just let my mental breakdown envelop me, as i knew i couldn't do anything about it.

The worst part of being gerascophobic was that you didn't know when the phobia was going to hit you, it just randomly shows up and it sucked cause you couldn't control it, or do anything about it..

I put the glass down on the bedside table, and looked at my lover with red puffy eyes. He returned the gaze with a smile, holding his arms out which i climbed into. He held be tight as we layed back down on the bed.

"it's going to be okay, i promise" he said with a loving tone. I have no clue what i'd do without him, he's helped me through so many things and i feel so weak and vulnerable in the position i'm in right now.

"i love you, don't forget that, okay?" He said as he kissed my cheek, i nodded as i pecked his nose and nuzzled my face into his neck.

I loved him and i'm glad that he's mine. With that i fell into a deep slumber.

Hey, this was the very first chapter of the "phobia" series, and also the first chapter of the fanfiction.

I hope you enjoyed! ♡

~Beka