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Pain in the smiles

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        I was running to catch the bus so I wouldnt be late for my first job at the office. It was just a simple desk job but it would work for now. I had just moved to New York and everyone was always so busy. Theres a lot of drug deals in alleyways,gang rapes, its kind of scary to be real with you.

     I moved here to get away from my abusive family. They lived in California,across the country. My father and mother used to get drunk or use heroine and bathsalts,they would beat the shit out of me until i was on the floor bleeding not being able to talk because it hurt so bad. It was hard being abused growing up, it causes you to have really bad trust issues not to mention having to stay covered constantly to conceal it.

      When i was younger i always wanted to grow up and change myself so i couldnt be related to my parents like if you knew me i wasnt anything like them. That was my one goal in life, i dreamed of being a CEO of architecture, but everyone talked down on me for it. I always hid my depression through a smile it wasn't easy but it worked relatively well. Growing up i always tried to cope with my depression through things that were not good in any way shape or form and to be real they never worked.

       I started working when i was 16 it helped me stay away from home as much as possible and i was happy about that. Moving to New York was an escape for me i didnt care about the drug deals,the gang violence, and the rape it was perfect to me. The office job can be rather boring but in all reality i enjoy it, ive always been the type of girl who has to be working or doing something other wise im just bored. So today after i got off work i was going to go home an finish the house. I brought a decent sized house in a relatively secluded area. I only had about three neighbors and they were extremely antisocial.

    As soon as i got to work mr. Humpfrey was on me about getting his files copied, mr.Humpfrey was really nice he was one of the better bosses ive had. My desk was in the right corner of the room, i didn't associate with anyone in the office but kate she was such a sweet girl. "Aurélie,come here please" mr. Humpfrey called, i walked over "yes sir?" "Please run these upstairs to kendra tell her to fax them to mr.Åhr" "will do sir" "thank you Aurélie, you are amazing." I smiled an began walking to kendras office.

     "Hey kendra, fax these to mr.Åhr please." She scowled, "this isnt for you is it?" Honestly i didnt like her she was a bitch. "No its for mr.Humpfrey he will be very mad at you if you dont do it so i advise you to fax them." She rolled her eyes, "fine." I walked out quickly and headed back to my desk.