I belong to you

Dont run from your feelings

   
      Ive been trying to get in contact with Josh its been two days no word,he hasnt been at work either. Im horrified absolutely horrified. I drove to his house, when i got there i knocked on the door and when he opened i was so happy words cant describe how excited i was.

      I ran into his arms wrapping mine around his "god Josh where have you been?" I was about to cry, "im sorry" he whispered. I grabbed his face making eye contact with him "whats wrong?" He said nothing. "Please talk to me Josh"i was holding back so many tears. "I cant do this Aurélie you mean to much to me" "Josh no please stop" "i cant stop its gonna hurt you if I continue" "how will it hurt me Josh its feelings!" I was crying now and it was so embarrassing.

     "I dont wanna hurt you Aurélie your my everything and i need you but your gonna get wrapped up in me and i dont want you to fall for someone you dont want" "Josh i want you! I want you more than anything i wouldnt be here other wise dont run from your feelings!" He kissed me not sexually,not out of hate or lust but as if he loved me or as if i was a gold metal.

    "Please stay" i said gently "i wont leave you,i just want you to promise to always be honest with me please?" "I promise." We sank down the wall together where i was sitting on my legs with him on his butt lega spread around me lost in our bliss. Foreheads against each others just enjoying each others presence. Ive never felt the way ive felt about him before. It's different but i like it,it makes me happy an feel worthy.

     "Aurélie please look at me" i looked up, he ran his fingers over my jaw "you are so beautiful" i cuddled into his chest and we fell asleep there it was perfect. Like something you find in the movie. I couldnt believe this was happening to me.

      In my head i was wondering if it was real i was so horrified that it wasnt and that i was dreaming, but another part is wondering if i deserve this? I dont know my head is always against me considering my past. Ive never wanted anything to do with men,but look at me now falling for a man thats almost perfect. Atleast im not running from my feelings.