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Rainy days and stormy nights//t.h.

⚠️WARNING⚠️ THERE IS SELF HARM AND ADULT LANGUAGE IN THIS IMAGINE IF YOU DO NOT LIKE  THAT STUFF PLZ SKIP THIS IMAGINE (I also put a name in there for the story but if you wanna change it like in yo head or whateva be my guest most of my stories are probably gonna be like that so I can add lot more character into everyone)

I looked out the window as the rain fell. I listened to the sound of the rain falling onto the window and the pavement of the sidewalk. I sat there silently my tears hitting the sheets of my bed making a small sound. XXXTENTACION's voice filling my ears with sad songs and catchy melodies. My heart shattered into a million pieces how could someone I once loved hurt me so bad. I was always a strong girl who always got through hormonal depression and stuff like that but how could he do this to me I hope he's happy with the girl he replaced me with. I sighed and got up going to the bathroom I stopped at the mirror and looked at myself "maybe she is better than me" I said to myself then my eyes went to my left wrist where my scars where they where barely visible because they where from years ago. I starred at them wondering what would happen if I added just one or two more. No one would know anyway I'm good at hiding them so I took my old blade that I taped to the bottom of under the sink thing and made one cut. The memories of last time flowed in I couldn't help myself I made a couple more before I decided to stop I cleaned up the cuts and put the blade back. I felt different not a good different but an ok different. I walked back into my room and sat down by the window I noticed a very familiar car outside of my house. Tom. I thought I froze up what would he want. I heard the door open downstairs he didn't even knock. I could feel myself start to shake as I had a panic attack. I hear my doorknob turn. "Hey rose you in here?" I heard his voice say only it didn't sound like his normal happy voice it was much more sad and broken. "Yeah" I quietly said my voice was all scratchy and quiet. Then I saw his face I turned away so I couldn't see him. I could feel his eyes on me though. "I just came to get some things ok?" He said "fine" I said looking out the window again "are you ok?" He asked "yes I'm fine."I said blankly "you don't seem fine"he said "WHY SHOULD YOU CARE" I yelled. "Because your important to me" he said sounding hurt "Then why would you hurt me you just say shit to make me feel better well it's not working so just leave me alone because I mean nothing to you and I never did" I said "YOU MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME ROSE" he screamed "then you shouldn't have broken my heart" I said getting up forgetting about the cuts. "What's that" he asked. I put my arm behind my back "nothing. Would you just leave me alone." I said trying to walk past him. He grabbed my wrist softly and turned it over I yanked it away from him as quick as I could. "Rose how could you hurt yourself like that?" He said as tears formed in his eyes "why do you want to know I thought you where in love with someone else that you get a special feeling with" I said "I thought I did but I fucked up" he said looking at me tears falling down his face. "I never meant to hurt you or be the cause of you hurting yourself" he said. "Well you did that shit anyway" I said "please let me help you and help us" he said "us? There is no us and there never was because every time I needed you where you PARTYING WITH OTHER BITCHES" I said "I can't live like that ever again Tom I'm sorry" I said "I'll change just please give me one more chance to prove to you I really do love you and I wanna spend the rest of my life with you" he said "Tom...as much as I'd like that I'm scared that you'll leave again" I said shaking more than a ever did "I promise I'll never leave you or hurt you ever again because I love you rose I really do" he said looking at me "ok I guess I couldn't try giving you a chance" I said looking down "really?" He said "mhm" I said "come here" he said softly I slowly stepped closer to him his tall figure stood above me. he gently placed his hand under my chin and lifted my head up so I was looking at him. "I promise I'll never hurt you" he whispered and hugged me the warmth of his body was relaxing I slowly and very gently wrapped my arms around him . I could feel him hugging me tightly but being very gentle. He pulled away and looked at me. I looked up at him with the Sadness of my eyes adding a little twinkle to them. "Your eyes are so beautiful" he said "thanks Tom"I quietly replied. I went downstairs to make some tea to help my throat and calm myself down. Tom followed quietly. I grabbed the tea kettle and set it on the burner I always use. I didn't need to worry about filling it I always just re boiled water. I waited silently. A couple minutes later I felt arms wrap around my waist. Where the arms lay I felt tingly and I started to tense up and shake a little bit. "Rose it's ok I won't hurt you" Tom softly said into my ear. I didn't respond I stood there all shaky and tense. "After my tea is done ima take a bath ok?" I said softly my voice still sounding like a broken record. It used to sound different like silk if it had a voice. I heard the tea kettle whistle it's song I turned the burner off and poured the tea into my favorite mug. It was a simple black one with my name in pink and a Rose next to it. My dad got it for me many years ago. I walked up the stairs and into the bathroom. I set my tea on the sink and turned the handle so the water can run I set it to the perfect temperature. I reached into the medicine cabinet and pulled out a nicely scented bath bomb. I went and got some candles from my room and placed them around the bathtub I lit them. I stripped off all my clothing and dropped the bath bomb in I grabbed my tea and took small sips. Moments later I heard the door knob turn. I opened my eyes to see Tom. "Rose I was uhh wondering if I could keep you company" he asked nervously rubbing the back of his neck and looking down "Sure I guess" I said. I had a big bath tub so I wasn't too worried things would get weird. He stripped off his clothes like I did. I didn't mind because I had already seen him with clothing before. I just closed my eyes once again and relaxed. He slowly got in I could feel his soft eyes hitting my light skin. My eyes fluttered open I could see Tom looking at me now. All the lust and love filled his eyes sadness only filled mine. I like to go more slow with things then he did he'd always have to wait for me to be ready. One time he didn't wait for me tho instead he moved on. I hugged my knees. "Come here princess" he calmly cooed opening his arms. I moved a little closer his smile faded a little. "Princess come closer I promise I'll protect you instead of hurt you" he said I moved super close to him laying my head on his chest. His arms wrapped around me slowly and delicately like he was holding a new born puppy scared of the new world. I looked up at him and he smiled at me. I gave him a little smile indicating I was ok for now. I decided maybe for once he wouldn't have to wait for me. I sat up I looked him straight in the eye and kissed his soft lips I had missed so much.