dear lover ♔ e.d

.5

next night

ethans p.o.v |

dear lover,

not being able to wrap my arms around you tears me into shreds.

not being able to smell the vanilla scent on you rips me apart.

not being able to hold you in my arms as you cry letting you know that you're lover kills me.

it's my fault though i am the one to blame. i did end it all.

all of our happiness,future memories,kids, anniversaries.

i will let you know why. but now isn't the best time. i don't want to see you get hurt. not anymore at least.

please know that i do miss you scar and i still love you, i may seem happy with her but not as happy as you made me. you're beautiful

you're the only one i truly want.
you're like a diamond in a pile of copper pennies.

you're special to me.

i love you

sincerely,

your lover

♡

i sigh putting my pencil down.
"its all my fault even though im just trying to keep you away from any harm."
i whisper to myself.
she still cries because of me. that i know because grayson and i argue about it almost everyday.

he likes her. it's obvious they should be together. he's better then i'll ever be.
i may not be absolutely okay with it but being his brother i will support it.

i get up grabbing my phone and headphones searching for my playlist.
it started to play,music filling my ears, the words matching every emotion i have felt for the past few months.

i didn't realize i was crying up until i tasted a salt like liquid on the corner of my mouth.

i hurt her more then anyone else did.
i had to. there was no other option.

the next song plays an instant reminder of her.
she loved this song,still does.

i sung the lyrics quietly, barely a whisper, knowing every word.

"arms around you
te amo, mami, let me hold you
got me arms right around you, girl
good lovin got all around you
to make sure no one could harm you
dale, mami, let me have you."

te amo scar.

♡

grayson's p.o.v |

i woke up hearing small sobs coming from another room. being concerned i get up walking to e's room making sure it wasn't him.

but it was.

i sighed knowing why, walking towards him taking out an earphone from his ear and hugging him.

"i know you like her gray" he said with a shaky breath.
my heart sunk as my face filled with guilt.
"i-im sorry" i stuttered not knowing what to do or say.
"do you love her?" he looked me in the eye. his we're bloodshot with tear stained cheeks.
"um- im not sure ethan"

"if she makes you happy then go for it" he said fake smiling.
"i couldn't do that to you"i said looking away.

he just laid his head on his desk wetting the paper underneath him.

it was a letter to scar.how do i know? one,it's says to scar. and two,because i know this is what they do.
it's their thing.
always has been always will.

they can't take the pain of being near each other and talking to one another so they confess their love on paper.

nothing's gonna stop them.
it hurts me but i know it hurts them worse.
i rub ethans back as a sign for him to know that i am here for him.

"it's okay" i say repeatedly.
"but is it really grayson" he furrowed his eyebrows looking at me.
"i-" i was interrupted by him.
"no it's not.why? because i was technically forced to break up with the love of my life and go out with someone i barely knew so no one would get hurt. THEN turns out my brother is love with her. worse part is you can't control how you feel."
he said in one breath.

"ethan im sorry" i say getting louder.
"sorry for what grayson?"
"say it louder for the world to hear you're in love with her"
"im not-"
"say it gray"
"admit the fact that you're in love with your own twin brothers ex who still both cry over each other"he shouts in my face.
"move e"i said calmly yet slightly frustrated.

"come on gray you know it as much as i do" his eyes pierce right through me.
"fine ethan i love her im in love with your fucking ex" i said shouting.

"you love me?" i whisper came from behind me.

"scar" me and ethan say at the same time.
"no-i mean yeah- i-i-"
ethan and scar both look at me waiting for an answer.
i sigh looking down "yes"

ethans breath hitches while scar stands there frozen.

"he loves you scar. you should go for it.you know with someone that can make you happy." ethan said looking down clearly on the edge of crying.

"i-i don't know i mean-" scar barely makes out a sentence.
"it's okay just think on it" i said walking past her.

"im going to my room. goodnight"
i say.

"goodnight ethan" i hear scarlett say with a shaky breath.
"goodnight scar" he says.

i stop in the hallway waiting for her so she didn't have to be awake alone.
but i left as soon as her the last words they said to each other.
"hey scar"
"yes?"
"i still love you."
"i-"
"i love you too ethan"
i speed walked into my room quickly going under the sheets with nothing but tears filling my eyes.

i felt the bed sink down knowing it was scar.
i sniffed but maybe to loud since scar said "im sorry gray i just don't know how i feel about us right now"
"it's fine.im fine. just get some rest.goodnight"
i say closing my eyes and trying to drift off into a deep sleep.

she doesn't love me.
and i have to wake up knowing that.

a/n
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ayoo a sis is feeling really upset lately so what's a better way then to make a new chapter am i right! things are getting rough mentally and school is draining BUT  im working to get through it. hope you enjoyed.make sure to leave a vote baddies.

-arii