I think about you every day. Your smile, your laugh, the way you didn’t care about what anybody thought about you. They all loved you. The girls, they loved you a lot. You could have had anyone of them, but instead you chose the silent loser, me.
You loved everyone, even the people that hated you, because you always told me that if they talk about your life, then you must be important to them. You inspired me and made me a happier person, Drew…but then your cancer took over and spread. Nobody knew about it, until you became really sick. I remember the day you told me, you wrapped me in your arms and said that you would always love me. I cried and cried, Drew. Even after you were gone, and even now. I never stop thinking about you or anything we have ever done.
I remember when you asked me out, I was sitting in the corner of the gym, getting beat up from some girls. You came over and pushed them all away and took me by the arm. I remember being so scared that you were going to hurt me to, but scared at the same time because you were my crush. I also remember feeling a little excited because the sweetest and nicest guy in school had me, the school loser, by the arm. Well anyways, you took my up to the school roof and had me look up. I looked up to see millions of colorful birds flying and a sing that said “Amy, will you be mine?” I remember the exact day too…Valentines day. I never stop thinking about you on that day either.
I also remember our first date. Oh gosh, you were nervous. We went to the aquatic center because you knew how much I loved penguins. We went to see the penguins ontop of the tank, and gosh Drew your clumsiness got the best of you, and you fell into the tank with the penguins. I remember pouting that day because you got to swim with the penguins and I didn’t. Drew, I can’t forget anything we did. You’re just stuck there, forever imprinted on my heart, but don’t worry. I like you there.
But Drew, the day you left I won’t ever forget… You invited me over to tell me something. You said it was urgent and we didn’t have much time. You were dying, and by the way you looked, I could tell it was soon. So I got you in your wheel chair and took you to the place that meant so much to me, the aquatic center. I pushed you over to the penguin tank and you and me sat there for what seemed like hours, talking and watching. Of course, I did most of the crying. That was the first time I’ve ever seen you cry, and I’ll admit, I didn’t like it. I never wanted to see you cry.
After about two hours there, I drove you too your dad’s grave. I wanted you to see him before you passed, even though you were going to see him soon. You looked at the place he was and asked me to help you stand. You had an arm around my shoulder. The other shielding your face from view. I took your face in my hands and kissed away the tears so I could see your beautiful blue eyes. You looked at the grave and spoke softly, so soft that I had to strain my hearing, and you said, “Thank you for giving me my life dad, even if it was a short one, I lived it well with the ones I loved.” He grabbed me closer and hugged me tightly, crying softly into my shoulder, choking back a few sobs. You sat back down and I drove us back to your house where we cried with your mother. You always did have your mother’s beautiful eyes. I just wished they weren’t filled with tears most of that day.
I remember us walking up stairs at around eleven at night. We layed on your bed and stared into each other’s eyes, silent tears falling from them . You pulled me closer and I pulled you back. You looked down at me and said, “I love you, Amy. Forever and Always.” I cried hard into your shirt, mostly because of what you had said…but also because you looked so weak, I just wish I could have helped. I pushed myself up to your height and whispered, “I love you Andrew Blake Payne. Forever and Always.” I grabbed your head between my hands and crashed my lips onto your own soft, still pink lips. I fell asleep in your arms that night, hoping you would be there with me in the morning.
I woke up and saw your beautiful eyes looking at me. You smiled and mouthed “I held on until you woke up. I love you.” Your eyes closed and your hands fell limp on me. I cried into your shirt, sobbing louder than ever. Your mom came upstairs and sobbed with me. I’ve always loved your mom, she liked me back too.
At your funeral, I stood there the longest and mouthed, “I’ve held on for this long Andrew. I love you too.” I walked to the bridge, and looked out onto the ocean. I saw the sun setting, and looked down at my watch. Eleven thirty at night. When you told me you would love me forever. Well I love you too, Drew. Forever and Always. I took out my pocket knife and cut my wrist deep. I felt myself start losing a lot of blood. I hopped off the bridge and closed my eyes.
I’m coming for you Drew.
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Okay guys and girls c: So this was my interpritation of the song "River Flows In You" by Yiruma. I just thought it had so much feeling in it that I should write something about it :D
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