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Vanoss x depressed reader

|| If you don't like gore or suicide related stuff, don't read. And if you are suffering from depression or anything like that then please seek help, your life is precious, don't waste it. You can talk to me if you want!||

Your P.O.V
I'm really done with this shit. I am so done with trying to be good enough for everybody. They all throw me away like trash.

Here I am, standing in the bathroom with my phone that was recording me. This is going to be a goodbye video for my fans.  After I said everything, I posted it.

But little did I know, a certain SOMEONE was on their way over to my house.

I started recording again, this time, is for him and everyone else.

- "Hi guys. Yeah, I know I look like shit. But don't worry, you guys won't need to see this ugly face anymore. You might be thinking why I was crying, well, because I'm done. I'm gone. Y'all, I appreciate you guys soo much for trying to fix me but I am broken. I can't be fixed. So I am sorry. I tried, I really did, but it didn't work. I love you guys soo much. You all are amazing friends! I can never ask for better, you guys made me live longer than I thought that I would. You guys made me smile when no one else could. "

I took a deep breath and continued.

- "And Evan, I love you. I've always loved you, and I know you love me too, it's quite obvious. But hopefully you will find somebody perfect for you.  Remember when you caught me singing? Yeah, well that's what I'm going to do now. There's a song that I can relate to. "

My cheeks started to turn red as I took a deep breath and started singing.

|| start the song now if you want||
(Btw you sing both the guy's and the girls part)

When you hold me in the street
And you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours

We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough

It's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face

But we know this.
We got a love that is homeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours

[Jason Derulo:]
When you're with him, do you call his name
Like you do when you're with me? Does it feel the same?
Would you leave if I was ready to settle down
Or would you play it safe and stay?

Girl, you know this.
We got a love that is hopeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours

And nobody knows I'm in love with someone's baby
I don't wanna hide us away
Tell the world about the love we're making
I'm living for that day
Someday

Why can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours

Oh, why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours

Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftop
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours

Why can't we be like that?
Wish we could be like that

||Done||

I was crying. My tears just kept running down my face.

- "I'm sorry. I love you."

I took the razors and took a deep breath and started cutting my wrists. It hurt. It hurt so much, but I didn't care. As the blood gushed out from my wrists I slowly started going down, my legs gave up.

I was just sitting there, dying. I heard somebody knock. I think I know who. And then, everything turned black. And That's when I knew, I was dead.

Evan's P.O.V

I was standing outside Y/N's door, waiting impatiently for her to open the door.
Is she in the bathroom? I thought and I tried opening the door and... it was open all the time?
What the hell? I thought and started worrying.

- "Y/N? Where are you?"
I walked around and stopped outside the bathroom. The light was turned on but no noise.

- "Y/N, are you in there? "
I said and knocked a few times. My heart was racing.  Why the hell isn't she answering? I knocked one more time. That's it. I thought and busted the door down easily.

And... there she was. My angel, on the floor, blood everywhere and the light from her eyes were gone. Her gorgeous E/C  that was once filled with light and happiness was now grey and empty. My heart couldn't handle this.

I quickly got down to her dead body and tried waking her up.

- "C'mon Y/N, don't play shit like this. Wake up! "
I yelled and started shaking her but she just fell into my arms and I, who was crying so much hugged her precious body.

- "Please, baby,don't do this. Please! I love you, Please wake up! "

Nothing I did worked.  I knew she was gone, but my heart didn't want to believe it.

- "I want to hear your beautiful voice, please, Y/N wake up. "

I saw something in the corner of my eye, her phone. It was recording. I went up and stopped the recording. It was automatically sent to the group chat that me, her and the guys had.

I dialed 911. I went back to my Y/N and carried her body bridal style to the bedroom and put her gently on the bed. I was next to her, playing with her hair, crying.

I heard the sirens outside. They came in and asked what happened.

- "My precious Y/N. She's gone. She killed herself."
I simply said and kissed her forehead. I remember when I kissed her for the first time, it was her first kiss, I was so happy that I was her first kiss. She was walking down the dark hallway in Craig's house and I pinned her to the wall and kissed her roughly. She was so embarrassed, it was so cute.

They took her body away and started asking me questions. I just sat there, looking dead and quiet.

I will never forget you, Y/N. I love you. I always will.

|| Heey guyys! Hope you guys liked it! It was a dark one and it was hard to just write it but I did it. I will edit this later on because I have to change some stuff. Baii!||